i miss him...........

i was thinking of my ex-boyfriend this morning.....he never really abused me, but he broke up with me after 2 years because he's gay.....but i remembered all the good times we had together....the break-up was almost 3 years ago......i miss him......it felt really good to be loved....he doesn't know that i was raped.....i wish i could still be friends with him.....i miss him......i really wish that i could go back to that relationship.......i guess i just miss intimate moments.....i need a boyfriend....well don't need, want a boyfriend.....i dunno.....somtimes love comes when you don't expect it, right???