kinda frustrated.........

kinda frustrated......the house should go on the market soon......my mom told me that next weekend she's gonna visit my dad.....i have a choice....i can either stay here or go to a realtives' house.......if i stay here there might be an open house or showings....if i DON'T stay here i'll go to a realtives' house and stay there for the weekend....i really wish i could stay here with no showings, but i know that that's not really an option.....i eman i could but i'd hafta leave every time there's a showing....i'd hafta go to a reltives' house where i can do my homework on my laptop....i'm frustrated because i just wanna live a normal life!!! no shwings, no anxiety, no urges ot self injure etc. etc....part of it is my BPD acting up so i just gottadeal with that...**sigh**