Hi,
i am so sorry you are struggling.
i am in recovery from anorexia myself,so i can relate.
i have been working outpatient with a dietician this time after many times in treatment.
i understand how difficult,challenging and triggering the weight gain is.
For me it has been hard to have given up my old coping mechanism of restriction and i ended up telling my therapist the last time i talked to him how much i miss my old life,but he reminded me how unhappy i was just a couple of months ago.
No,i am nowhere near content yet,and i struggle everyday with my meal plan.i feel like it i all i am doing is eating,but it i think we have got to remind ourselves that to be free of the disorder will in the end be worth it.
i am hoping for a more colourful life once past this than the misery of this disorder i have been living in.

i wish you all the best in your recovery.

I've been borderline dancing with ED all my life. (Thanks, dear old dead Dad.) Anyway, point is ---- it's tough, but if anyone says anything remember this: WHO CARES WHAT THEY THINK?! If they say you look great, nice. If they don't, fuck it. Either way, you need to care about your *health*. And that is the pep talk I give myself and my hubby gives me.

Healing hopes.

I weighed 350 pounds in 2018 after a decade of struggling with depression and PTSD and stress eating peaked for me. I took 2 years of nutrition classes and lost 27 pounds, but it was such slow going that, having demonstrated my good will to lose weight however I could, my doctor recommended me for weight loss surgery.

I have kidney damage, so I couldn't have the full bypass surgery most patients get. Instead, they took out 85% of my stomach. I lost 84 pounds, which left me still a big man but no longer an obese one. Now I'm working hard at not gaining that weight back. My surgeon predicted that post-op in the first year I'd gain 10 pounds back. So far I've only gained 7 pounds back, I'm glad to say, but it's a daily struggle.

When I flew on airplanes back then, I had to ask for a seatbelt extension. For 8 years my weight caused me to have to walk on a cane. I was wearing clothes size XXXXL back then. I could never buy clothes off the rack, I had to buy them all online. Now I don't need a cane any more and I wear clothes half that size, XXL, from the new wardrobe I bought on the cheap from Goodwill. I can buy clothes off the rack, too, now. My seatbelt fits as well.

It's a daily struggle, but it's worth it. You have my total understanding and support because I certainly know how you feel, Marah, day by day.

Thanks y’all. I have been so present until now. Break is hard. It’s quiet. I’m eating though.

F'em if they say anything about your weight. It is none of their business. And you should be able to drop weight now that you will be moving around more. Stay on the diet now that you are back. You are who you are regardless of your weight. I know that I love my wife no matter how big she gets. She is still the same person that I married.