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MarahIdellCatLuvr
MarahIdellCatLuvr

I have multiple anniversaries this week. 


it's weird that one even bothers me. I was safe at camp but walking on eggshells praying I wouldn't run into him and then we'd go home and all hell would break loose. One year my dad confiscated the phone because surely had I told anyone they could have called the police and that's when my silence started. My brother was my primary abuser but my dad was his. Life was just plain scary.


then I "grew up" and married someone who insisted we take a vacation every summer about this time. It often overlapped my birthday and I just wanted my birthday to be for me. I wanted to do what I wanted to do. I didn't want to feel awkward around his friends. I tiptoed in that relationship, for different reasons but the week was typically hard. Lots of alcohol. Just hard.


i needed two anxiety meds this morning 


Community LeaderLeo
Leo
Hugs of support.

Scary life indeed. Summer is nothing but bad memories for me starting end of May and finally easing around end of August. I also hate the season anyway, so... Yeah. Anti-anxiety meds. Do what you have to do for your own best. B/c times like this... we gotta. *fist bump*
Community Leadermujicaptsd
mujicaptsd
The military coup that knocked over democracy in the country where I grew up as a missionary kid took place on June 27, Marah. I could have cared less when it happened because I was 15 years old and politics didn't matter to me, especially foreign politics.

But soon after a military patrol came in to my suburban neighborhood and grabbed me and tortured me. Suddenly I was off to the races with PTSD from some soldiers who were well trained to know how to give it to me. I was a happy go lucky teen boy no more.

So June 27 is my anniversary that sucks every year, and I do understand how a date on the calendar can be more than just a number. Hope those anxiety meds helped this morning, and support for them from here is doing the trick today.
Beryl367
Beryl367
Hi Marah, lots of hugs of support. Sorry this week is a tough one for you. Glad you have the anxiety meds and that they help.
Lots of thoughts and prayers for peace and strength for you.
Community Leadermujicaptsd
mujicaptsd
Thinking of you this Sunday, Marah, hoping it's the start of a better week for you and me both.
eli_mom
eli_mom
Hi- I’m so sorry you are having such a rough time. It’s good you have medicine to help you feel better.

I pray for peace to surround you everyday. Please stay strong. God bless.
Community LeaderSunCloudJD
SunCloudJD
I hope that the meds worked...... Big hug of support and calm..... xo
Community Leadermujicaptsd
mujicaptsd
It's Monday, and the week begins with sending you support for starting it well, Marah.
MarahIdellCatLuvr
MarahIdellCatLuvr
Thank you Muji, I am highly anxious today but celebrating a healthy weekend. No restrictions, no purges, no si, just existing with anxiety and depression. Maybe that’s why today feels extra hard. How are you friend?
Community Leadermujicaptsd
mujicaptsd
I'm OK, Marah, thanks. I'm behind in my lesson plan preparation for starting school next month, but it's understandable. I'm glad for your healthy weekend, it's no small thing to pull off these days. Way to go!
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