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Hard morning

MarahIdellCatLuvr
MarahIdellCatLuvr

Nothinn happened. It was a typical morning. Really it started last night. Anxiety. I NEEDED my meds. I wasn't myself. I feel more myself when I'm not momming. Kids come home from Dads and my anxiety comes with them. That makes me feel like a terrible mom but I know it's pure hyper vigilance and with my history that's understandable. Last night the neighbors were loud and I heard strange noises. I stayed calm, read stories, sang songs, gave blessings and closed the door. Trying to set to myself didn't work. Went to bed. Woke up a mess, meds helped but only for a short while. It's been a day. And it's only 10am

Thor2008
Thor2008
Sorry about the hard night. That is no way to start a week. Why are you anxious about the kiddo being there? Can you expound on that? Can you add more security like lights or cameras? Stuff like that. Would that help?
Community LeaderSunCloudJD
SunCloudJD
Gentle hug.... I hope that you day will improve soon...... xo
Community Leadermujicaptsd
mujicaptsd
I'm so hypervigilant from PTSD that I can't live with anybody else any more, Marah. It's why I live alone. If somebody comes up behind me unannounced my automatic PTSD startle response is so exaggerated I jump out of my skin and give them a heart attack.

I can't control it, either, it's just that way. I was up late last night, and then slept in and missed my psychiatrist appointment for PTSD. I'll go on Wed. to make up for it, but it's still going to cost me an $80 penalty fee for the missed appointment today.

Sigh. Hypervigilance. Insomnia. Trying to keep day time appointments. PTSD, the gift that keeps on giving.
MarahIdellCatLuvr
MarahIdellCatLuvr
I think the anxiety around my munchkin is because I’m afraid every decision I make regarding her could screw her up for life. Also, if someone breaks in while we are both home.... I need to take a survival class
Community Leadermujicaptsd
mujicaptsd
I hear ya.
MarahIdellCatLuvr
MarahIdellCatLuvr
I’m cuddling a teddy bear and a real cat so it’s not all bad
Beryl367
Beryl367
Hi Marah, I hope things will be looking up for you soon.
As a parent I've seen that kids are as resilient as "they" say they are. So, as long as your home is a physically and emotionally safe environment, try not to stress about other parenting stuff.

Teddy bears and cats can sometimes be as much therapy as scents and music.

Peace and hugs.
doggy123
doggy123
funny, I used to lay in bed worrying about someone breaking in too -- but that's because I had a crappy mom who probably wouldnt have cared, was always locking herself out of her car, must have "forgot" about my rabbit while I was gone, until she found it dead :( so I figured she probably would "forget" to lock the doors too.

as long as you feed them youre a better mom than many.
MarahIdellCatLuvr
MarahIdellCatLuvr
If I didn’t have a modern car I’d lock myself out of the car several times a week
doggy123
doggy123
oh bummer haha. well at least you care, which is more than many can say.
Community Leadermujicaptsd
mujicaptsd
Thinking of you today, Marah.
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