I think I am going fucking mad.Vicky hasn't spoke to me in Hmm 4/5 weeks..she hasnt been online, hasn't responded to my daily txts. I don't know where she lives exactly, I don't know her number. Cries.I feel so alone and useless. I'm staying awake later at night and read till about 12 to wear myself out. It's just one sleepless cycle. I was made to eat chicken. not the meat but I was brought subway and the guy who had just had his gloves filled with chicken touched my lettuce roll and I just want to be sick. puke puke puke. I just feel like dying. kinda like slowly and discretly slipping away. I feel this aching inside me again and I can't fill it. I don't even feel wanted anymore.  I just hope others are taking care.