JessicaChase
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- Those of you who pray would you please keep me in mind. I am barely getting through the day without SI. My body memories, PTSD are over taking me I feel so trapped in this body. The only thing that stopped the memories in the past was by bleeding. I...
- Does anybody else struggle with body memories? Body memories can be so disturbing! There is no controlling what the body does. I have done so many things to interrupt them, but they always come back. This PTSD crap is really exhausting me. Will it...
- Contrary to Stephanies comment of being stuck in herself, I wish I could be stuck in an alter. I dont want to be here any more. I some times wish I could be stuck and end up in a psych ward forever just to avoid living. This living stuff is...
- Woke up this morning with one thing on my mind...the very thing I drempt about. SI. I tried not to give it much thought all day. I'm hanging barely not to act out, but the memories and temptation is overwhelming! I'm even planning on what I would do...
- i am having the worst time sleeping lately. I woke up 4 times last night literally unable to catch my breath. I have been dealing with some childhood nightmares that were real. The memory of them take my breath away. Now, I'm so afraid to go to...
- I hate having alters sometimes. Some of us get all excited about a new project or direction, but when we start in that direction someone else sabotages it with their fear of change. Most of my jobs in my life have lasted only up to 3 years at the...
- Have you ever felt like telling all your personalities to f_off and leave you alone and shut up? That's where I am today. I'm so sick of working on us. I want to be normal! I'm so sick that I cannot hold a job down, I'm tired of the fear being...
- Some times I get so overwhelmed with the temptation to cut that I can not come to this support group. I know that we are all struggling, but honestly when I am on the verge of giving into this f_n obsession to hear others express their cutting...
- When younger children are sexually abused by an older sibling is there such an excuse called "kids stuff?"
- There are so many reasons that I cut, we all cut other wise we would not be in this support group. There are different ways to act out in self harm in order to cope with what ever is driving us mad. I realized the other day that if I am not busy...
- I have been reading so many posts on how our alters did this, or that...often in a negative and an abusive way. Yet, I think most of us appreciate some of them. So, with that said...I would like to say "Bravo" to our alters, because if we did not...
- Ok, this is so warped. I recently had surgery. When they tried to set up an IV for me they could not get a vein. I was stuck 4 times when the nurse gave up and got the head nurse to do it for him. A total of 5 times in my left arm. They kept...
- I am overwhelmed with shame. I have an old friend coming to visit me who has not seen me in 14 years. I've put on around 70 pounds since I saw her last. I know that the eating disorder is one of least concerning coping disorder I have right now....
- When I have people visiting I am usually very hospitable. Unfortunately, I can only stay present for short periods of time. I have a friend coming to visit soon and I'm scared. She's planning on seeing me for a week. I'm excited to spend some time...
- Doesn't it just suck when you have done so much work on processing haunting memories and you find a moment of peace, but that is what it is a moment!Years I've been on a road of working on childhood sexual abuse and SRA. Just recently I finally have...