JessicaChase
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- I am sad. I'm sad I had a Narcistic mother and an absent father, I'm mad that my twin was miss carred and I survived. I'm sad at all the people that sexually abused me. I'm sad that I was not raised as a true Christian. I'm sad that I have 10...
- I've been in intensive therapy for over two years now. I have never worked so hard at anything. I so want to know the truth of how I got so "f-ed " up. There have been so many times in my life that I have been the victum of someones sick and...
- I was just over at the group for cutting when I realized I started to switch. Mary is one of my alters who is very spiritual. Unfortunately, she was deceived by evil spirits and this is causing one of my other alters 8 year old Stephany being held...
- I realise that if I do not pay attention to my energy level and what I do or do not do for others can overwhelm me into state of wanting to cut! I came to the conclusion that if I continue to give to others and forget about my needs I want to cut....
- Living with 10 different personalities and their issues day after day is exhusting! I can't remember the last time I had a thought that did not have to processed through 10 different people. I can feel my alters getting pissed off with me because I...
- The other day I was watching shutter Island...great movie. I have been bothered by the fact that since 1955 when psych med's first started coming out the closing of many psych wards occured. Grant it most of them were horrible places, but today it's...
- I am dealing with some heavy issues and I'm not satisfied with my behavior. i popped a vein when I cut. I'm sick I enjoyed all the blood.Changing meds again. Nobody can take away the deep hidden pain of being a victum and enjoying it. I feel like...
- I do not understand why I insist on hurting myself? I do not think I can do this any more. I was already hospialized 2weeks ago for suicide attempt. Now I am cutting again.People say that Jesus can heal anyone. I thought that was true when I stopped...
- Ok if you have been reading my posts you will know that I have a very angry 9 year old named Victoria. Not only is she angry she's aabusive to me. Today I woke up from a drunken stupper with my nephew helping me. I am embarrassed. I do not know...
- when I was a child I used to do all kinds of things to hurt myself like biting my finger, pulling my har, slapping mys face, burn myself, walking in the street with cars coming right at me. When I descovered cutting it was the ultimate release and...
- I have a personality that likes to be very hurtful and perverted. as you can guess it's Victoria. She is a very angry 9 year old who was abused by women and men. So, I want to appologize to any of you that might be offended by her comments or...
- My name is victoria. I am 9 years old and I want to be hurt and abuse by a hooker. Never have I done this before but I can no longer hurt the other alters. I want to be slapped around and cut and sexually abused! what is wrong with me?
- It just breaks my heart to have had to go through this conversation with my 20 year old son. He totally does not believein DID or PTSD and why I can't manage an average day. I'm so exhausted from the discussion we had that I can't write it all down...
- It has been years since I last let anyone into my life. My friends have become my alters. And some times I get attacted by spiritual beings. I believen God and the freedom found in Jesus but I have not yet been set free from the strong hold of...
- I lost my first discusion on this topic some where in the system. Some times I really hate computors! My dicussion was about wanting to be hurt by someone or self like I was when I was 9 years old. my older sisters friends used to make me do things...