Self-Injury Support Group
Whether you or someone you know or love struggles with self-injury, this is the community to discuss your experience, find support, meet others going through the same, and get advice on how to stop. Working together, we can help find alternative coping skills to reduce the urge to self-harm.
Ok, this is so warped. I recently had surgery. When they tried to set up an IV for me they could not get a vein. I was stuck 4 times when the nurse gave up and got the head nurse to do it for him. A total of 5 times in my left arm. They kept apologizing, I said it was no big deal.
My sick mind enjoyed it, but I did not let them know what was going on in my head. So, now I have a legitimate reason for the brusing and scares on my left arm and hand. Though I have not cut since April it sure did tigger that euphoric feeling of using present pain to control past memories pains of abuse.
My sick mind enjoyed it, but I did not let them know what was going on in my head. So, now I have a legitimate reason for the brusing and scares on my left arm and hand. Though I have not cut since April it sure did tigger that euphoric feeling of using present pain to control past memories pains of abuse.
I have a huge fear of rejection,
but the messed up thing is is that when I am feeling rejected sometimes in a weird way I almost "enjoy" it .
I think accepting pain and.. telling yourself that the pain is a good thing "because you're worthless" or for whatever reason.. almost just makes the pain more bearable.. /the present pain being felt and also past pains associated with the current one being felt ...
if this makes much sense