JessicaChase
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- This post is a bit lengthy, but I felt a desperate need to get it out and be able to understand all aspects of suicide! For the sake of those who do not read my journal I am posting this on other groups. This time of year there is a very high rate...
- Though I have grown in many ways this past year in amazing miraculous ways with God, I still fall short and struggle with hurting myself. Im finding that hurting myself has changed its purpose. It used to be to control the painful memories by...
- Ive been incredibly upset by the shooting this past week. I was so overwhelmed with sorrow. It was not until yesterday that I realized what was going on inside me. My personalities were all upset in their own way. Therefore, I was consumed with...
- I have been cutting in a place where no one can see. In a sick sense I feel momentarily relieved when I cut, without my loved ones seeing, but I also know I am living a lie. I read a notation this morning that really convict my heart:Pretending to...
- I posted this in my journal, but felt a need to share it here also.As you all know Ive been going through uncontrollable body memories for a while now. My mind could change the way I think in a healing way, my heart and emotions can apply the...
- My mind is beginning to fixate on harming myself tonight. I know you all know what it is like to be consumed by the adrenaline rush you get from acting out. For some reason my mind is not fighting back. I have become exhausted with keeping myself...
- I do not know where to post this...PTSD, MPD, SI....The last time I was like this on this forum I disappeared for 4 months, because I tried to kill myself and was hospitalized. There is a war raging inside of me. Thats an understatement! Im loosing...
- I do not know where to post this...PTSD, MPD, SI....The last time I was like this on this forum I disappeared for 4 months, because I tried to kill myself and was hospitalized. There is a war raging inside of me. Thats an understatement! Im loosing...
- I do not know where to post this...PTSD, MPD, SI....The last time I was like this on this forum I disappeared for 4 months, because I tried to kill myself and was hospitalized. There is a war raging inside of me. Thats an understatement! Im loosing...
- I fell into the same old trap. You would think after 6 months of not acting out would have sustained me from ever acting out again, but it didnt. I hate myself today for hurting myself again. In the moment the memories and over powering urge gets so...
- I do not know what has triggered my desire to cut and stab myself. The body memories are huge and the acting out usually decrease the effects. I'm on the verge of a cutting out. I need immediat help, because I'm starting to plan what to do. I know...
- I was having a nightmare one night last week.In the dream the evil man from the satanic ritual abused came back to get me. I was so terrified in my dream that my mind could no longer handle the trauma and I switched to the personality that endured...
- I just want to put this out as a warning. I am a Christian. When I first came to the Lord everyone was telling me that I was demon possessed and needed deliverance to be from these personalities, which they called demons. Naturally being new to all...
- I am so sick and tired of these nightmares! This morning I woke up screaming. Its to the point that Ill have a nightmare in the middle of the night then Im afraid to go back to sleep. Im afraid to go to bed. Im afraid of I waking up in the middle of...
- Anybody who is experiencing PTSD and is working with a counselor please inform her/him about this new procedure called ART.It stands for Accelerated Resollution Therapy. It is amazing how much healing can be attained in just one process. The...