JessicaChase
Status: RIP sister!
Mood:
Ok
Offline
- Have you ever prayed so much for a situation for a long time that you surrenered it to God because the situation was apperaring like it would never change? In doing that it does not mean you agree with what is happening, but God gives you the grace...
- Please! I need some help! Not all my personalities know how to deal with the desire to cut. I am overwhelmed by the temptation tonight. Someone please remind me why it's not a good idea to cut!
- Ok, my daughter is here on a visit. I keep telling her that I am so sorry about the mess I've been for these past few years, but I can not remember what I've done. So, if I hurt her I was sorry. Honestly I think she was thinking I was using this as...
- I just can not seem to get through any type of company. I think I just can not be around people period! My daughter is here. I love her. It's great to have around, but I get ready for bed at night all I think about is cutting. My deceiving brain is...
- Sometimes I try to control my switching and I used to overeat to do that. Then I started cutting which stopped the focus on food. Unfortunately, I am back to the over eating again because I do not want to cut or switch. I hate myself right now. I'm...
- I am so sick of this never ending craving that is never satisfied. I have lost all ability to want to eat healthy. I know something is going on with me. I just can't figure it out. I'm so sad and angry at my behavior. The more I get discusted with...
- I have not seen my daughter since last summer. We have experienced so much growth in our relationship due to my healing of PTSD, DID and SI. She has noticed this when we skype. She's flying from England with her boyfriend next saturday. I'm nervous....
- Isn't it so predictable that when we get over stressed our route of thinking in our heads goes habitually to the cutting? I have not cut since April. Yet my brain visits that place seeking relief. Some times it's not even a negative stress. It could...
- WOW! I am amazed at what is going on in my head! I actually did disapear for a while. When I was gone we were switching so much that it got confusing. It's like we all started to blend together. Now I'm back and I'm switching, but I know it and I'm...
- Wow, I have had an increadable night. I do not know how much I drank, but I know I'm so messed up right now and would love to cut. I've been on the run for a few days now. I keep switching personalities to avoid the reality of my f-ed up family. So,...
- I just need to get this out of me...I want to cut so badly! I know it's because of my friggin family visit! I AM SCREAMING RIGHT NOW...I WANT TO CUT! I have lost all ability to regroup since their visit. I'm switching and sleeping so much. I'm so...
- I am having family staying with me this weekend. They came in town for my nephews graduation. Some times I can't even put a finger on what exactly it is that triggers me because it's just about everything. I just donot want to cut. I haven't cut...
- i have my sisters family visting me while we all go to my nephews graduation. I am having such a hard time staying present. They trigger a lot of crap. Sometimes I can't be around them at all. I want them to go away so instead I go away and let my...
- I'm not happy to be here. I hate that I have this problem!
- Wow, talk about a mind blowing experience! I really do not know how to explain what happened. It's going to take me a few days to process it all so be patient with me. I really do want to let you all know what happened. In the mean time I'm stepping...