JessicaChase
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- I'm not sure what is going on with me, but I feel peaceful with the thoughts of being suicidal. Any thoughts?
- Some of my personalities like to get drunk. I know this is not safe with all my medication. I know that I personally am not an alcoholic, but I have found that a few of my personalities are. Can anyone relate?
- So freaked out at see family first time in a long time that I binged with fear since October. Now I'm fat! God!!!!! I hate myself!!!!
- I will be traveling abroad for Christmas to see my children. I'm already panicking over it, because it's such a long journey. I'm afraid that I will switch into one of my children and get lost. Any suggestions?
- I have been living with flash backs and memories for 20 straight years. I cannot do it any more. I disassociate in my mind, with 10 people. My heart is so broken and my body hurts from the abuse and self harming. I really do not want to go through...
- I am reliving every abuse and they are all around me. I cannot control the body memories and the panic in my body and chaos in my head. This really sucks. I'm so tired of living with my past. It just consumes me. There is no where to hide and I'm so...
- I think my eating binges have gotten really out of control since I stopped hurting myself. I feel like I have to make a choice...either being grosely fat or dangerously bleeding? Why can't I just be like normal people? I hate me!!! I feel so alone...
- I have been living through some horrible flash backs with my personalities. There is no peace in us. We are all traumatized. I asked the Lord if He would help everyone but me sleep. So, as of Friday everyone is sleeping. Unfortunately, I still...
- I cannot live with myself any more. No matter what I eat it is never enough and still unsatisfied. There is no escaping from the flash back stress in my body. I just want to die. I have gained so much weight this past month. I don't know what to do....
- I just spent 9 days in the hospital, because three of my alters were acting out in very dangerous ways. I've been home now 4 days and my alters are frustrated. They want someone other than myself to talk to. They are afraid to come out when we are...
- I just got out of the hospital on Wednesday because of hurting myself and other things...like starving myself and binge purging and I just up chucked my night binge. WOW I am so angry with myself!
- One of my personalities has been present for a while, but my daughter in law came to stay with me for a while. I've been watching one of her dogs for a few months. Now she wants me to keep her two dogs when she leaves the country to be with my son....
- I am feeling so alone in my life long struggle with self harming, triggers, haunting memories, eating disorders and fear. I keep trying to run away from everything, but just when I have conquered an issue more comes up. Each personality has there...
- I am so frustrated with myself. I hurt myself last night. The anxiety was so bad I had to control it somehow and cutting takes care of the anxiety immediately. Yes, I do know its not the best choice, but when the urges effect 10 personalities its...
- One of my personalities caused me to have such a horrible panic attack yesterday. That personality is an artist. I was trying to create a birthday gift for a friend, because the artist personality has been gone for a while. She has been mad at us....