first off congrats on being 3 months free of si; that's a wonderful achievement. With it creeping into your mind again it's no wonder that you're dreaming about it. Try to do this; if u dream about it again tell yourself that's more fuel for u to NOT si and that you're going to beat this addiction. It's all about one day at a time and some days are harder than others but you can get through them.

Good job on the 3 months! That's awesome.

Okay so you've dreamed about and thought out exactly where you'd cut....so do it, draw it out on paper and write out why you want to cut and what it would look and feel like.

Get it out of your head and your subconscious. Get it all out onto paper and then tear it up and throw it away. Do it as many times as you need to...keep the thoughts purged from your head.

Keep up the very hard work, your doing great!

kat

I really appreciate your support, but it's the morning after and I did act out. The pressure just got so out of control. So, now I'm suffering with that regretful morning after. I have to start all over again. My heart is sad

(((hug))) SI is my addiction and every morning after i hate myself that much more...i've read some interesting success stories on this board but i think we all have something in common here, relapse...its like we are cursed or something so ive stopped coming here so often to write down my failures of not stopping...i feel a lil lonely without this group but i know in my heart i may never quit so i just decided to stop kidding myself...for those of you that stop, congratulations...to those of us trying to stop, i'd have to say dont give up

Just like with cigarettes don't quit...quitting...It had been two years cut free and I relapsed the other day.... After I was able to sleep without that horrible stabbing feeling in my heart.