Hi dsf, I also know that numb feeling, many of us here do, so you are not alone. If you feel like talking here or venting, there are so many understanding people, and in time things can get better, so welcome and share whatever you would like to, we are all on this journey together in different ways, it has been a comfort for me to have a safe place to go...Support to you!

Please tell us more it helps to share. Only as much as you are comfortable with of course.

Hi Dsf.I understand completely. I lived emotionally and physically numb for many years. It got to where I didn't know anything else. Are you working with a good therapist? It's meant the world to me having one. Changed everything for me

it's good to be numb

Numb because I am an incest victim, cannot drive because all the family traumas and accidents that happened in cars, permanent diseases in legs (tortuous varicose veins and lymphedema) mean I have to stay on a strict diet and bike every day and I'm still not at the weight I want to be at after 6 years of hard work. Cannot stand up long enough to have a job, get dizzy if I am standing for more than 20 minutes. The vascular surgery I thought would help me also led to a hormone problem and my curvy figure is now more athletic looking and my breasts have atrophied, there's no more milk glands and they're still shrinking. And I got kicked in the vulva from behind in August, but I've already posted too much about that. I know I am blessed with a lovely family, but everything else seems humiliating.

My hormones are now back to normal, but breast atrophy is irreversible

I'm so sorry, dsf.

That's entirely too much for a person to have to deal with.

I wish you peace, HEALTH, and strength.

Thank you for all the very nice replies!

Just to say hello, chime in and let you know I'm glad you shared. I've got more htan one health problem along with the PTSD, and I have days when I just have to be numb or go nuts from trying to keep it all going. Big purring support.

I feel this way off and on, numb especially in a depression period.

Welcome, please post as much as you can. Wonderful people here.

I have flashbacks, nightmares, and so on from triple PTSD (rape, domestic violence, and combat) on a daily and nightly basis. When I don't I post a celebration here about it! So in this therapy thing, I've learned what "chronic" versus "cured" means. Some things are going to continue even if it's not fair and they're bad.

But the one thing that I really hate is "dissociating." It's worse than the flashbacks, etc. So I can relate to what you're saying. I was surprised to find it out, but therapy taught me that, just speaking for myself, I would rather feel BAD than feel NOTHING. That's just me.

That can lead to self harm to break the numbness, so I had to really get a hold of myself once my therapist and I figured that out about me. But it makes sense, doesn't it, that feeling numb would be harder to take than feeling bad, right? I mean, feeling is what makes us human and not robots.

So I'm really sorry for how you feel, because you're not alone, I know what that numbness is like. Lots of support to you, we get it here. Welcome.

DS, hey I am hoping the dark day pass soon and the brighter days last longer. I think we have all experienced numbing but it does get better with time especially if you are seeking help via a therapist of some sort.

((hugs))

Thanks again for the replies. This is a supportive group!