PinkArzora
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- I feel like alcoholics are a lonely group so they like a community. I will drink alone and crash anyone's table. I am Bill Murray, who stole someone's fry at Wendys because he can, and not actually Bill Murray. I live for the transient bathroom...
- Last day of 2020 is here. It is NYE day and I am so happy to know I've made it this far. I had a wicked arthritis attack in my hand that turned it into a claw quite abruptly. I was so over it. Husband was upset i loaned our car to my drunk brother....
- Top of the Monday morn to ya! I am again the early bird, here tapping out words in the dark with a dog in my lap. I first off wanted to mention that had I caved to drink Xmas eve morn, it would have lined up with my son bringing a girl over to watch...
- It is Saturday and like so many others I am financially panicked. I wanted to zip to the store, and then it hit: how do i pay for it? I have that sad amount open on my credit card, but i can live without it. How is this not depressing? Despite the...
- Stick a fork in 2020, it's done. Final countdown here we go! Dealing with this year has been a "one day at a time" scenario. Like my sobriety, the whole damn world may crumble in an impulsive decision. Despite knowing the devastation such a decision...
- My Christmas Miracle is that i am still sober. Last day I drank was Nov. 7. I have a goal of reaching Jan. 20. Read into that however you want, but yes these arbitrary dates have political inspirations. I know that's not the perfect method to...
- I am having a hard time dealing with my depression over our bleak finances. Credit cards are maxed, little money in bank, and i don't have anything to put under a tree if we even get one. My son wants a Heng Long King Tiger tank with metal tracks...
- Sobriety has a way of bringing your anger to the surface. I am angry, deep down, and when it bubbles forth I need to deal with it in a saner way than suppressing it, locking it up in a box, and letting it rot there until another drunken impulse...
- It is believed, among those who have observed my process, that when I am counting the days invested in my sober streak, I am about to fall. If history is an indicator, that is likely true. I like the drama of the space launch countdown. Tick off a...
- Good morning people who are up before twilight. My dogs don't care where the sun is, if it is daylight savings, or if momma was dreaming warmly under her blankets. Nudge! Nudge! I am at the door! Creaky house, loud door.So yeah, i am the early bird...
- Don't worry, i am not here to heckle but that would be an interesting passtime. What do you do in your freetime? I heckle alcoholics! I am happy to report i have broken the barrier of (sound!!) 3 week slide. I made it through the recent holiday...
- I am happy to report i am days away from a three week sober commerative plaque! Ok.. maybe not the plaque but the first part is true. I had a slip right after the election, as "political justifications" are now a thing for me. It is bonkers how my...
- I got the itch today...and no this isn't a tmi moment. You know what i'm talking about, that voice building a floodgate of the impossible wall of things i need to face and accomplish. MyGod!!!! Where do I begin? What do I tackle first before my...
- I had an alarming dream the other night. My husband brought me a device he claimed could swap brains and we could put our cat in a new body (that was orange instead of gray...idk) and I believed him. He used this thing and claims to put Yoshi into a...
- My brain is ALIVE first thing in the morning. I move sloth-like, but inside thoughts are happening a mile a minute. A list is prepared: can i deal with mold in basement? What about the half scrubbed wall in back yard waiting to be painted? Can we...