PinkArzora
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- Who am i? Am i a good person? Am i more than my addictions? Addictions: plural. I am filled with them. They creep around under my skin, looking for satisfaction. Has my eye landed on a poison apple, glistening in the twilight? That's fancy talk...
- I feel like clowning around today. I want to take on something different, which may be furniture. Idk. I want to get trashed and dance, really, but the fallout is not worth it. Greetings from my twilight perch! The morning is my time, and the sweet...
- When will i be free? Are we ever truly free? What is free really? I am held captive by various addictions, but i am still at the helm as captain whether to pay them heed. Their call is like a ghost on the ship, do I carry this ghost on my travels?...
- Good morning to you!!! I am here in solidarity with Texas as our furnace quit last night so buying extra space heaters turned out to be fortuitous. At least we can plug things in to heat rooms, so Texas has the prize for most tragic situation.I am...
- My body feels like it's been left in the rain for a decade and weeds are growing through the splits. I have noticed that i am more in tune to all my creeky and organ-punched episodes as i wade through my sobriety. In the past, it felt like the shoe...
- First off, i am triggered bc I wrote a post yesterday and some glitch ate it & now it doesn't exist. Pff.I am proud to report that i haven't touched alcohol since my gut wrenching dance with the devil on 1/20. I put too much focus on a date to...
- Good morning peeps! I've devoted too much emotion to "omg... I forgot about the car insurance" brain drive & flippen tf out about keeping the debt hole fed. It needs to be fed. I forgot about that, too. Things need constant feeding. What if that's...
- Greetings! It is 11:11 i am noticing.Where do i begin?My alcoholic guilt almost always doubles down on gambling. Can't go on a bender wo another bender. Won $400 off $10 on a NEW casino app in my state. Had the sense to withdraw it. Did i have the...
- Honestly the set a date approach did not quite work out for me. That whole scenario was a trap. Setting a date meant i was mentally counting down to when i would get a reward.Lame.I built it up too much, this arbitrary day that i set myself. I...
- On some level we are all tribal. Your tribe may be more elite or exclusive, but no person is a product of wolves or whatever. We all carry that imprint on those who raised us, sculpted our characters. I know alcoholics are their own tribe. You feel...
- Greetings! It is 6 am here and i almost slipped on ice taking out trash already. Yeah January! May my bones survive your wrath.Anyway. I am still in countdown mode.. Thinking about an adult way I could dance around this shit. I wanted to make a...
- I have managed to swim through these landmines of triggers, having followed through on my commitment to not drink since my slip on Nov. 7.Looking back, I made the best birthday cake ever for my son this year. I made a decent Thanksgiving, though my...
- As a person grown up poor, denial is woven into the tapestry of my identity. If i want a loan, it's always a no. I rember a man, who had the same name as my father, was moving and selling his New Yorker for $1350. This car was immaculate. It had...
- Um .. Where does one start about yesterday? I don't know what the fuck happened that the rage boiling over manifested into a literal attack of our politicians, but my God. I am your typical liberal type, just swallow it in passive self destruction,...
- I feel like I'm about to tumble. We are part of the group that had their second stimulus payment directed to TurboTax & now are told we won't see any money until claimed as a "tax credit." Ladies & gentlemen, may I present: The Shaft. Here it is!...