PinkArzora
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- I fell.I hate myself but my ambition that maybe "i got this" was misguided. I like to leave cryptic messages on FB when I drink. Frankly I don't really have any friends. No one invites us for a bbq, a bike ride, a wedding. You don't want me at your...
- It is 7:28 am here. The President is visiting 15 minutes from away, and I can feel the madness festering in the atmosphere. I made it another day sober! The idea that I could "secretly drink" spun in my head half the day. I want a micro brew cider...
- Ok. So i made it through the day sober yesterday. It was touch and go for a minute there. The addict in me: a memoir. No.. The addict in me sets up "windows of opportunity". It is a game I lose where one part of my brain is coming up with excuses,...
- It is 7:32 am here and I want to drink. Why? Why is my brain giving false commands that alcohol will make it better? Because i am an addict and i can't trust my damn brain!! It sucks. Stfu brain. Added, I have a bonus day freeplay and somehow want...
- I have vowed to have a dry August. I was losing it last week, and many people reached out to me with solid advice. I felt I wasn't alone in my fight. It felt good.Soooo.... today I want to talk about my addiction's best friend: gambling. I have been...
- I have been a drinker for 20 years. It is hard to turn around a behavior pattern so ingrained. I am a binge drinker, though I gap it out to every 4 days or so. I recently had a 5 month sober streak, but then the Covid business & our lives turned...
- I am feeling sorry for myself tonight. Yes, i went on a bender at the casino and lost our last $200. I am 43 and have no money. I have two kids, who have tons of stuff, nice clothes, don't need for anything. I just hate that it's another Christmas...
- I qualified for a "tournament of champions" for the first time and having never been in one (3 minute slot tournament), I talked myself into going. Big mistake. I intended to play $20, maybe $40 dollars and come home. My husband has been out of work...
- I have been with my husband for 20 years. He has been a decent guy and I trust him. He is starting a new career driving trucks and it takes it's toll on his body and mood. He has nerve and back problems and he's a refugee from a war that left him...
- I just lost the most money ever at the casino. My husband switched careers and we ran out of money while he looked for a new job. I sold 2 parrots I've had since they were babies yesterday and we finally had money to put gas in the car and cover his...
- My son was diagnosed w autism, but now may be adhd. He sAys has no friends in school, that everyone hates him, and wants to switch schools. He has a friend, who is 8 and comes here weekends and many days, who goes to another school. The issue...
- I am an alcoholic. I haven't had a drink since Thanksgiving, which is not that long ago, but I am still proud of myself considering. I live in a house of addicts. My father, who follows me down the wine binge road, is a nightly drinker and it is his...
- My brother is not a criminal, he is an alcoholic who is now in jail in Alabama over domestic dispute with his separated wife (who has a boyfriend), public intox, resisting arrest... He needs $1500 to be bailed out, but no one has the money. Our...
- I've not posted here before, but love some of the other groups. I'm in that pit right now of losing all my survival money in the bank, which was $280, to the casino. I really hate myself. I don't have limits when I gamble or drink. I go to the...
- My husband left me for a woman who was 18 (I'm 37) a year ago. We reconciled but it's never been the same. I am not the hero here, I drink, I gamble, I run away/disconnect. He's not the hero either, he's in his mid 30's, still spends nite after nite...