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Trying to turn things around.  Trying as hard as I can.  I woke up slightly earlier then I have been...still the afternoon but better then has been.  Opened the curtains and blinds even though I...

Trying hard to be good today and to think positively.  I forced myself to have a bath...was beyond needing it.  I hate how hard it is to do such a simple task when the depression hits.  I od'd on...

I dissociated last night and took a small overdose.  Nothing that I ended up going to the hospital for....hardly even felt any effects from it.  Not sure what was going on in my head...I remember...

Not a good day at all...  I couldn't even bring myself to get out of bed until 2:30 pm...and that was only because I needed to use the washroom.  I think I probably overdid it yesterday but I...

I've been a pretty mixed bag lately.  Have a few days that I feel good and a few days that I feel bad and pretty much everything in between.  Today I'm not sure were I stand so I'll say okay. ...

Doing better again.  I'm sort of an emotional yo-yo it seems and little things are affecting me in ways they shouldn't.  But onward and upward.  Yesterday was a good productive day.  Today I'm up...

So frustrated.  I need a new family doctor because I can not handle the clinic I go to or the doctor anymore.  That said however, there aren't really any doctors here taking new patients unless...

Feeling a little better mentally.  I had my appointment with the Rheumatologist and we decided not to go ahead with the Rituximab at this point.  If/when I have more symptoms or get an infection we...

Another off day...maybe the February blues?  Who knows. Have lots on my mind and just trying to process it is a bit overwhelming.  I think I may be hitting a bit of a depressed spell secondary to...

Feeling better today but not 100%.  I think I was just a bit burnt out yesterday and having a bit of a pity party fest while reflecting and processing some things. Today is the 3rd Wednesday in a...

copying and pasting my FB status because too tired to do anything else: just not feeling myself lately...not sure what that's all about... may be just a season I have to go through, maybe just...

So I have my appointment with the GI surgeon to try to figure out why these darn anal fissures won't go away.  I have to prepare for a sigmoidoscopy which I've done before so not a huge deal...

Quick update as it's almost 1:30am.  Ebby and I made it back to the apartment within a few days of the previous entry.  Time has been so crazy that I'm not really sure what day it was we got...

The new year has begun.  Welcome 2014!   I am not really sure what to write about but thought it was time to enter another entry.  Overall things are going well.  I'm adjusting to the new...

I should be sound asleep but my brain kicked up into overdrive.  I knew it would hit eventually.  Remembering bits an pieces of the appointment and various terms I heard.  Also was mentioned that...