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Today was an okay day.  Didn't take anything for sleep last night so was surprised I got any sleep but did manage some.  Didn't want to wake up though and even after I did wake up it took a lot to...

It's 1am and I'm exhausted so will be going to bed soon....and hopefully sleeping. Saw hematology and she's the first one that actually made me feel better about the chronic neutropenia and what I...

kindly disregard that last entry... yes i'm having a horrible-ish kind of day but no I'm not giving up...I'm still in the fight...I'm just feeling overwhelmed and struggling today but not about to...

not sure why i'm so off today but just feel so overwhelmed and like giving up...having trouble with thoughts today... somehow though i managed to get myself to do the dishes...only positive of the...

I'm just about ready to head to bed since it's technically "tomorrow".  The weather outside is frightful (freezing rain) so bed is a good place to be...curled up under a blanket and if I can't sleep...

 I think some of us need a dose of humor...I got this in an email, thought I'd share it.       ...

The little boy I mentioned in yesterday's entry passed away early this morning in hospital.  Please keep his family in your thoughts and prayers. I'm really sad about this.  When they found him...

Haven't been up to much the last few days...sleeping during the day and awake at night.  Thankful that I can take sleep meds tonight since I have to get up for appointment with Rheumatology...

Wow, I'm super tired these days...but I think now it's side effects of the increased dose of medication.  It's a different tired then what I was experiencing before.   I saw my psychologist...

Today might be a little better then yesterday...in some ways.  It's another day were I've stayed put in the apartment though.  It has been raining insanely here today and it's actually a good thing...

I decided to call my psychiatrist today  to talk about increasing the meds at least temporarily.  She agreed that would be okay as long as I was okay with it.  So tomorrow I will start 50mg of...

It was another rough day but I made progress...though sleep has pretty much been thrown out the window at the moment.  It's 1am...I've been awake for all of 12 hours...if that. That said though, I...

I'm afraid that I'm slipping back into the depression and almost every area of my life is being affected.  The good news is that the thoughts to SI are only fleeting...they don't stick...but...

I'm not really sure what to write right now...I'm not even sure how I feel.  I don't feel happy, I don't feel okay...I feel sad....but in a different way...I don't know how to explain...not sad how...

I felt sort of okay most of the day despite barely sleeping and being awake almost every 30 minutes and then up at 7am because the person to fix our heat was suppose to come.  They didn't show up...