Trying to turn things around.  Trying as hard as I can.  I woke up slightly earlier then I have been...still the afternoon but better then has been.  Opened the curtains and blinds even though I would prefer to have kept them closed.  And forced myself to eat a somewhat decent breakfast.  Put away the clean dishes from the load I did before bed last night.  Played with Ebby.  For a few hours I actually felt semi-okay.  Then I had a bm.  And now physically things just suck.  I feel like I can't win.  If it's not something in my head it's something physical.  I feel like my body is out to get me and it feels like I'll never get a break.  Logically I know this isn't true but it's how I feel.  I can't shake it.  I'm just tired of it being one thing or another all the time.  I feel like I'm so weak because other people go through so much more without complaining and I guess I'm just not that strong.