alijoezack

rough week. busy head. car was stolen major stress. daughter started counceling and also started reading my ds journals and postings so little lost as to how to vent. am going to councelor with her...

i find myself struggling because i really want and need friends right now but get so scared to get attached. i was so sad today my sister called me told me a friend of ours was in hospital because of...

sister came to talk to daughter because she was very sick person for a long time. my daughter wasnt totally honest with her. i tried calling couple drs. will be more persistent tomorrow. im so scared...

shouldnt be but put off jounaling because im embarrassed. you all have told me for couple years get strong be by yourself but i dont listen. my child is sick and i am trying so hard to be strong for...

yup would like a 24 hr how to find myself plan then be all set for life. im hurt im angry. i cant play this game cause it hurts too much. tired of being so damn sensitive. dont want to spend rest of...

life is a strange and difficult journey. trying to slow down my head and keep things a little simpler. its easier when i dont worry about hurting other people or failing them. it puts way too much...

im keeping emotions in control but very scared gonna loose it. was ten minutes from her house for 3 days and didnt go cause it hurts badly. yes i miss her but i got so crazy its embarrassing. once i...

wow just had really great vacation with my kids. it was really relaxing and rewarding and i loved every minute of it. yes its over and yes i cried when they left but not as hard as usual. guess dont...

so she drove down this morning i guess dropped rest of my stuff off and didnt let me know she was theree. left me a card saying loved me missed me sorry hurt me. wishes me love and luck. ouch ouch...

i guess im very good at blaming myself for failing. i know i pushed her hard. but she was mean. why should it be a pain to text someone good morning and good night when you live 75 miles away and...

i guess this times a little easier but for months when knew it was ending hurt really badly. i havent contacted her in a week and that is huge for me. i wanted something that she didnt bottom line....

ok been 8 months. i love her very very very much. why did she say she needs space and refuses to talk to me for past 6 days. she lives hr away atleast. i usually go up there every other sat and...

feeling outta control again. have noone to talk to stressed to the maxx... keep freaking on gf cause she not same person as me. is it really normal to just get lost in your own world. why am i so...

made amends with my sister and i feel so much better. she is a very understanding person that i missed having in my life. just wish i hadnt caused her any pain. i dont like hurting people.

my emotions still everywhere. have my good days and bad. the guilt makes me put up walls. i want to be with my gf but feel guilty everytime i think of leaving my kids. she wants same thing but doesnt...