alijoezack

my sister seems think im too sensitive so should i be like her and date people that drink like a fish and beat me. why cant i just role with things and not get stressed at the drop of a dime. glad im...

i feel like im freaking mentally challenged. and i hope noone takes offense. i feel like my brain doesnt work right. and that i should be perfectly happy the way things are and that i jjust start...

um feel alot better than i have but i still panic when havent heard from her. we are both so ocd and text same time every night when doesnt happen i get nervous. still scared she gonna distance...

i feel better just trying to go with things and see what happens. i was at a really crazy place in my head when i thought everything was falling apart and lost controp of my feelings and emotions. i...

had long long talk yesterday via text of course. she wants to come back realizes she said alot of nasty hurtful things. she misses me and the kids. just needed break because she was overwhelmed and...

i caved after she told me shes so sad and misses me and the kids so much. asked her to come over this morning and visit for little bit before i leave for weekend cause havent seen her in over a week....

well i only made two people cry today. damn. and thought i was coping ok . oopsie guess can make it three if count myself, the ex called lastnight to say hello. she was very down, negative we just...

thankful i cant see her or go to her house or smell her cause it would def make this worse. gonna spend day with kids babysitting for friend maybe go swimming and try stop texting her every five...

im so tired. need to take care of myself. not a good eater usually but almost bottomed out at work cause my sugar crashed big time. guess gotta stop being dumb ass and living off of coffee and...

one of my workers called me an attention whore yesterday and i really wanted to nail her but i controlled myself seeing as dont really need loose my job. i just said am i really? kinda made me feel...

very very long hard day. she sent me some very honest emails and they hurt like hell. the truth sucdks but guess was needed. i hate this feeling. 4 months big deal. i dont have the energy to do this...

i just want to stop feeling like this. she just text me and all i got was a boo. so here i go crying and missing her waiting for her to say something. feeling lke wanna get sick as usual. i want to...

im so tired. think i finally ended it and not sure its what i want. i dont want to be alone. dont even know why or what i sent for text messages just was overwhelmed and missing her and so damn...

i am emotionally drained. im so tired. trying not to feel but its not working. just want to remove my head knock it off and feel alive. need stop having pity party realize things could always be...

ms teri i rocked and rolled for one day. not so good today. need realize i cant change people. just been ten years of dropping kids off with ex and somedays easier than others. he still knows how to...