alijoezack

well i only made two people cry today. damn. and thought i was coping ok . oopsie guess can make it three if count myself, the ex called lastnight to say hello. she was very down, negative we just...

thankful i cant see her or go to her house or smell her cause it would def make this worse. gonna spend day with kids babysitting for friend maybe go swimming and try stop texting her every five...

im so tired. need to take care of myself. not a good eater usually but almost bottomed out at work cause my sugar crashed big time. guess gotta stop being dumb ass and living off of coffee and...

one of my workers called me an attention whore yesterday and i really wanted to nail her but i controlled myself seeing as dont really need loose my job. i just said am i really? kinda made me feel...

very very long hard day. she sent me some very honest emails and they hurt like hell. the truth sucdks but guess was needed. i hate this feeling. 4 months big deal. i dont have the energy to do this...

i just want to stop feeling like this. she just text me and all i got was a boo. so here i go crying and missing her waiting for her to say something. feeling lke wanna get sick as usual. i want to...

im so tired. think i finally ended it and not sure its what i want. i dont want to be alone. dont even know why or what i sent for text messages just was overwhelmed and missing her and so damn...

i am emotionally drained. im so tired. trying not to feel but its not working. just want to remove my head knock it off and feel alive. need stop having pity party realize things could always be...

ms teri i rocked and rolled for one day. not so good today. need realize i cant change people. just been ten years of dropping kids off with ex and somedays easier than others. he still knows how to...

life is good trying to live day by day and not get so caught up in things. done crying daily done begging gf to be something she dont wanna be. trying to put myself first and whatever happens...

how do i know if its my crazy head getting away from me or if im being realistic? i think i like to start trouble because i know i care more than she does. dont know how to deal with feelings and she...

need to pull myself back together once again. dont know why i get so wrapped up so fast. maybe cause im miserable and an addict so when something feels good i want it bad. im tired of crying daily...

last couple of weeks have been crazy.  need to remember everything happens for a reason. while freaking out about my girls new hours and trying figure out how was gonna stay sane i ended up having...

just wanna ramble. i feel like im twelve with my first girly crush. i think me and my girl have reversed our age. i cant focus cant be content when im not with her. cant relax. always worring about...

i really wish i had come out years ago. im happier than i have ever been in life but also scared to death. im have so much love and support from my family and children and am very fortunate. scariest...