trying

so she drove down this morning i guess dropped rest of my stuff off and didnt let me know she was theree. left me a card saying loved me missed me sorry hurt me. wishes me love and luck. ouch ouch ouch. so told sister give me her number and she wouldnt. so yes i will go there cause guess im not done although i should be. i hurt badly feel like a failure. i really really love this woman. but she doesnt want same things as me. sat with friend today and told her many things and she was blown away. why would i stay. we all stay for different reasons. im just tired sad. need coffee. she said i am the most sensitive person she has ever known. tired of this. so different than the first. she was so young and immature and this one is so old and selfish.