alijoezack

im keeping emotions in control but very scared gonna loose it. was ten minutes from her house for 3 days and didnt go cause it hurts badly. yes i miss her but i got so crazy its embarrassing. once i...

wow just had really great vacation with my kids. it was really relaxing and rewarding and i loved every minute of it. yes its over and yes i cried when they left but not as hard as usual. guess dont...

so she drove down this morning i guess dropped rest of my stuff off and didnt let me know she was theree. left me a card saying loved me missed me sorry hurt me. wishes me love and luck. ouch ouch...

i guess im very good at blaming myself for failing. i know i pushed her hard. but she was mean. why should it be a pain to text someone good morning and good night when you live 75 miles away and...

i guess this times a little easier but for months when knew it was ending hurt really badly. i havent contacted her in a week and that is huge for me. i wanted something that she didnt bottom line....

ok been 8 months. i love her very very very much. why did she say she needs space and refuses to talk to me for past 6 days. she lives hr away atleast. i usually go up there every other sat and...

feeling outta control again. have noone to talk to stressed to the maxx... keep freaking on gf cause she not same person as me. is it really normal to just get lost in your own world. why am i so...

made amends with my sister and i feel so much better. she is a very understanding person that i missed having in my life. just wish i hadnt caused her any pain. i dont like hurting people.

my emotions still everywhere. have my good days and bad. the guilt makes me put up walls. i want to be with my gf but feel guilty everytime i think of leaving my kids. she wants same thing but doesnt...

i feel better and calmer. maybe it is all in my head but feeling better is good. trying stay calm cause its a very busy time at work and am in process of loosing my management team. i will work...

im still majorly depressed and battling hard. i just need be more independent and enjoy good times when i have them. i guess being an addict is huge problem for me cause when someone or something...

missed being here... having hard time slowing down my head....been on again off again for last 5 months with a woman. she is kind but im still a mess. im so ready in so many ways to play house...i...

sometimes when i go through hard times i put up walls so i can mentally survive. im so tired of being so damn sensitive. it has made my life very very difficult. it pushes people away. i get scared...

feeling very lost. have taken break from my gf because im emotionally overloaded. i have put up a large wall and it doesnt feel good. short version yes i love her. have known her for years but she...

i torment myself all the time. am i doing the right thing. why am i alive. should i have a life outside of being a mom and working myself to death. i struggle hard day to day. i just want to be a mom...