alijoezack

life is good trying to live day by day and not get so caught up in things. done crying daily done begging gf to be something she dont wanna be. trying to put myself first and whatever happens...

how do i know if its my crazy head getting away from me or if im being realistic? i think i like to start trouble because i know i care more than she does. dont know how to deal with feelings and she...

need to pull myself back together once again. dont know why i get so wrapped up so fast. maybe cause im miserable and an addict so when something feels good i want it bad. im tired of crying daily...

last couple of weeks have been crazy.  need to remember everything happens for a reason. while freaking out about my girls new hours and trying figure out how was gonna stay sane i ended up having...

just wanna ramble. i feel like im twelve with my first girly crush. i think me and my girl have reversed our age. i cant focus cant be content when im not with her. cant relax. always worring about...

i really wish i had come out years ago. im happier than i have ever been in life but also scared to death. im have so much love and support from my family and children and am very fortunate. scariest...

my anger scares the shit out of myself. i lost it badly and got violent and had to be rescued. havent been able get head out of ass since then. but am starting over had enough and thankfully have...

yup would like a 24 hr how to find myself plan then be all set for life. im hurt im angry. i cant play this game cause it hurts too much. tired of being so damn sensitive. dont want to spend rest of...

life is a strange and difficult journey. trying to slow down my head and keep things a little simpler. its easier when i dont worry about hurting other people or failing them. it puts way too much...

im keeping emotions in control but very scared gonna loose it. was ten minutes from her house for 3 days and didnt go cause it hurts badly. yes i miss her but i got so crazy its embarrassing. once i...

wow just had really great vacation with my kids. it was really relaxing and rewarding and i loved every minute of it. yes its over and yes i cried when they left but not as hard as usual. guess dont...

so she drove down this morning i guess dropped rest of my stuff off and didnt let me know she was theree. left me a card saying loved me missed me sorry hurt me. wishes me love and luck. ouch ouch...

i guess im very good at blaming myself for failing. i know i pushed her hard. but she was mean. why should it be a pain to text someone good morning and good night when you live 75 miles away and...

i guess this times a little easier but for months when knew it was ending hurt really badly. i havent contacted her in a week and that is huge for me. i wanted something that she didnt bottom line....

ok been 8 months. i love her very very very much. why did she say she needs space and refuses to talk to me for past 6 days. she lives hr away atleast. i usually go up there every other sat and...