alijoezack

i feel like i have lost my best friend. feel like she tore a big chunk of me out and took it with her. she acts fine and i act like i lost my best friend. when i saw her last week i know she is not...

little nervous. im supposed to see the ex today if she is up to it. has been almost 2 weeks. just wanted some closure or something. maybe give her her clothes back so i dont look at them everytime i...

ok should i be happy she said she woulda come with me to the funeral if i had asked her to. said just cause thing didnt work out in the relationship she still wants to be part of my life. but then...

im pissed at the world today dont think its all due to p.m.s. its monday used to be the one day a week we got together. but oopsie not today. not gonna happen so ill sit here like an asshole and cry...

went to see mom today with the kids and actually had a really nice day. we went to lunch then back to my moms for few hours. got spend alot of time with kids which was nice cause their faces werent...

have my good days and my bad. today is not one of the good ones. im fighting with poor dog that just wants to cuddle. poor thing. tired feeling sorry for myself. for christ sake all said was maybe we...

yeah i know its not end of world. just feels like hell. she loves me as a person but not in love with me. ive known this for months but still hard to deal with. she finally said it. but she keeps me...

guess it was overdue but doesnt make it hurt any less. we had  a really fun night but she wasnt feeling well as usual so she didnt stay. she started off today asking if i have issues with her seeing...

spent whole day on couch. went out last night after working a 15 hour day to a new club for lesbians. i was told by a woman that was running the place that i look im going through a really bad break...

trying to slow head down and just enjoy. been all over the place with emotions. cry at the drop of a hat. i love my gf and am so happy when i am with her but why do i keep loosing it when im not with...

i just flipped at work and feel like hell/ i run my own store for a large company and it was like a 3 ring circus and i ended up fliiping and crying and basically walked out. im very laid back but...

she is choosing the family over me which she said she will always do. she said sorry if you are hurt it is what it is. she is mad at me said she is not being mistreated by her family. they are...

ok finally stood up for myself. why does it now feel like hell. of course i sent my ten texts after that appologizing sort of. for 5 months have tried to quietly deal with not being allowed over gf...

woke up damn sad and shouldnt be have beautiful kids since tuesday and they are going back to dads today. i really love it when they are with me even though dont always act it. my girls relatives are...

i just wish i could be secure with my relationship. i cant be myself i cant relax i cant love her like i want to . maybe i should say screw it and be the person that i want to be even though i know...