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i guess im very good at blaming myself for failing. i know i pushed her hard. but she was mean. why should it be a pain to text someone good morning and good night when you live 75 miles away and only see them one or two days a week. and rarely talk on the phone. why should i have let her make all the choices and when i try to she freaks and then bitches cause im not independent. after 9 months cant fold laundry barely do dishes. told how to do everything. yes there were many many good things about her but i tried to make her something she wasnt ready to be. shes so damn all about her but hey so was i. she was the practical one and i was the passionate one. she didnt treat me as an equal. treated her bf so much better than me which called huge problems then she started lying to me and not telling me when she was there with her. i will get better just sad. dont wanna love again.