alijoezack

i absolutely need pull head out of my ass. i feel like hell. wanted to have a happy vacation. guess its only been last two days that been really bad. i miss her gotta face reality i only saw her on...

vacation nice went up country for few days been home for two. one of those spent with umm dont know what call her guess the ex. we spent twelve hours together and it was alot of fun. we went out to...

have the next nine days off. thankfully. stood up for myself this morning. of course after i freaked out. she did try to contact me last night but was tired so shut phone off. but she knows i work...

going on vacation starting saturday thank god. im really really tired. doctor prescribed me some zoloft today to try to help me out with my issue with the waterworks that flow on and off all day...

didnt see her again this week. but she thinks ok saw her last thursday for an hour. she got pissed cause i said tired of being her text buddy. then she got pissed cause for once i ignored her on...

so i sent her all thes really deep messages and guess what i got back ...um nothing. so she asks today why are you so quiet are you ok. are you freaking kidding me. i said i feel like im dead like i...

i feel like i have lost my best friend. feel like she tore a big chunk of me out and took it with her. she acts fine and i act like i lost my best friend. when i saw her last week i know she is not...

little nervous. im supposed to see the ex today if she is up to it. has been almost 2 weeks. just wanted some closure or something. maybe give her her clothes back so i dont look at them everytime i...

ok should i be happy she said she woulda come with me to the funeral if i had asked her to. said just cause thing didnt work out in the relationship she still wants to be part of my life. but then...

im pissed at the world today dont think its all due to p.m.s. its monday used to be the one day a week we got together. but oopsie not today. not gonna happen so ill sit here like an asshole and cry...

went to see mom today with the kids and actually had a really nice day. we went to lunch then back to my moms for few hours. got spend alot of time with kids which was nice cause their faces werent...

have my good days and my bad. today is not one of the good ones. im fighting with poor dog that just wants to cuddle. poor thing. tired feeling sorry for myself. for christ sake all said was maybe we...

yeah i know its not end of world. just feels like hell. she loves me as a person but not in love with me. ive known this for months but still hard to deal with. she finally said it. but she keeps me...

guess it was overdue but doesnt make it hurt any less. we had  a really fun night but she wasnt feeling well as usual so she didnt stay. she started off today asking if i have issues with her seeing...

spent whole day on couch. went out last night after working a 15 hour day to a new club for lesbians. i was told by a woman that was running the place that i look im going through a really bad break...