alijoezack

very relieved i dont have breast cancer. i have atypia will find out tuesday if going to be removed to prevent it from developing. but very happy cause tough girl was scared shitless. ya so not a...

days off are not always a good thing for me. thought i was gonna get to see her in the a.m. but didnt work out. so i finally spoke up and said what the hell do u want. she said likes me but doesnt...

really tired of being sad. just venting. i know i need to think positive and do things that make me happy just having bad bad day. im just lonely plain and simple. got biopsy and just feel so alone....

had biopsy done this morning. ya not so much fun. guess will find out by thursday the results. life could always be alot worse and am thankful for the things i do have especially my beautiful...

tomorrow is yucky doctor day. i hadnt been for atleast 5 years and now i have been atleast 8 times in the last 2 weeks. i have to get a biopsy done tomorrow and will be happy when this is all over....

maybe its the zoloft not really sure but im alot calmer. definately not crying like an ass everyday which is nice. have only seen her once last night in the past 3 weeks. dont really get why im...

guess kinda lost it today. havent seen her in a week. so was quiet today cause guess im trying distance myself so she says why so quiet. umm hello i said i miss u so she says i actuallly miss u too....

so here i sit on here night off and am being a big girl and not asking her over. does it hurt yes does it bother me, hell ya but guess maybe getting little stronger cause the old me would have...

so i thought on my vaca i would get to see her. her parents are gone on vacation so im allowed at her house. tuesday we spent 12 hours together. yes i count the hours. and thats been it whole week. i...

i absolutely need pull head out of my ass. i feel like hell. wanted to have a happy vacation. guess its only been last two days that been really bad. i miss her gotta face reality i only saw her on...

vacation nice went up country for few days been home for two. one of those spent with umm dont know what call her guess the ex. we spent twelve hours together and it was alot of fun. we went out to...

have the next nine days off. thankfully. stood up for myself this morning. of course after i freaked out. she did try to contact me last night but was tired so shut phone off. but she knows i work...

going on vacation starting saturday thank god. im really really tired. doctor prescribed me some zoloft today to try to help me out with my issue with the waterworks that flow on and off all day...

didnt see her again this week. but she thinks ok saw her last thursday for an hour. she got pissed cause i said tired of being her text buddy. then she got pissed cause for once i ignored her on...

so i sent her all thes really deep messages and guess what i got back ...um nothing. so she asks today why are you so quiet are you ok. are you freaking kidding me. i said i feel like im dead like i...