OllieTree

     I’m feeling pretty tired- partly i’m sure because of burnout and partly because i’m not used to tackling this volume of work straight on. As I need to do to maintain my sanity. No more...

It is scarce. We are learning about scarcity in economics, and from there I know that all resources are inherently scarce. It can be argued that time isn’t actually scarce, since everyone has the...

The depth of my exhaustion today was unreal. I came home, crawled into bed, slept but did not sleep, and spent a while sitting on my bed staring into the creaking ceiling fan, no energy to even think...

Seems I was right to be concerned about school starting- even if I wasn't sure exactly why. Just this nagging feeling. Today was day two and I'm already knee deep in brooding. It's not surprising...

This morning I had this horrendous feeling that I’d lost my motivation, excitement, spark, whatever you’d call it, that thing that makes life exciting that leads one to pursue to the ends of the...

Recently (~past half year) my pieces have been all traditional ink. My art has been in a constant state of flux the past few years since I’m still finding myself and what I like. Most recent...

Everything seemed to go wrong today. Nightmares, oversleeping, overworking, extreme creative anxiety, general anxiety, lack of motivation for kickboxing, then getting shouted at on the way back. For...

      I am an unfortunate perfectionist. Not a perfectionist, but a always-show-my-best-self-to-the-world-ist. That means sticking with what I know. If I try something new and fail, I feel intense...

I’m not feeling up to work, so maybe venting into a journal will let me get to work. My dad’s calmed down sort of lately. Apparently yetserday he and my mom had a long chat about me, or us as a...

Until I come off my emotional high, this is how it’ll be. Constant buzz and pain like my brain is expanding. Against my skull. Not so much a headache as anxiety and discomfort ache. My anxiety...

It was a website kind of like DS (though honestly quite a bit less organized) for people, usually young people, to rant and comment on each other’s posts. I found out that it got shut down.It used...

Long story short, my mom signed me up to teach a class of 12 year olds without telling me. The topic is dynamic drawing (quick and accurate drawing, like for a design career). I’m pissed because...

I’ve been doing better since my last journal, but today and now I’m sad in a way that only homesickness can bring on, and feeling incredibly alone. Grandma left today. It will probably be years...

It’s currently 4:20 AM. I’m in my grandaunt/uncle’s home on the outskirts of Shanghai and trying to sleep. My mom decided to share a bed with my grandma, which leaves me stuck with my dad, who...

Enough is enough. I want to be home.I lasted longer on this vacation than I did others. I was fine until we reached Shanghai. I expected it to feel like coming home. Instead it just felt alien and...