OllieTree

Tokyo has been a blast! While I lived Alaska for its quiet peacefulness and remoteness, Tokyo’s flashy and busy streets appeal to me. That’s because unlike LA or probably any other American big...

Well, I’ve been out of town or more specifically on vacation for three days now! Hawaii to be exact. It’s been interesting!      For some history, I usually don’t enjoy vacations because...

      I panicked today when after everything had gone so well yesterday things seemed to suddenly go downhill. Yesterday I began having such bad period cramps and lower back pain I couldn’t...

I'm feeling so much better :) After lunch I took some cushions out to the backyard and just lied on my side staring at a tree for while. Yesterday my friend did this excercise with me to notice...

So I realize I’ve been in constant major anxiety freakout mode since summer began. No wonder everything has seemed a little harder, a little bit off, a little worse, and a little more hopeless....

I feel alive again. All I needed was some perspective and a friend :) now if only I could find a way to consistently get the perspective I need, things would be gucci.

I’m sitting here now wondering what went wrong. Sometimes a day just sucks just because, and I’m not one to give up, but, as I said before, that means I have to bear it and live through it. I...

That productivity quota thing is acting up again. I dealt with it okay today. And the art anxiety! I’d like to deal with that first before trying to draw anything because jumping in anyway tends to...

Music is such a big part of my life now. I don't or can't tune out silence like I could before... there always has to be something in the background or life itself starts feeling awkward. It helps me...

I just woke up from a nap and from having the strangest dream! My family and I were eating some very small eggs (quail eggs size) and one of them started peeping and hatched. This litttle featherless...

I had a few days stability before being dragged down! I think a lesson I need to learn is to accept my unhappiness without living in it. As it is, I tend to drive myself into a worse state by having...

Ah, no, I feel sad now again, aching black and empty. Pointless and all. Bit of a full hit combo... I’m not one to give up, but that means I have to live through this life...

I've mentioned before that I'm an only child. I wonder how different life would have been had I had siblings. As things are now, walking into my house feelsl ike stepping into a different world from...

What an interesting day it's been. I've been dissociating nearly constantly, with some clear parts, but some strange feeling, vestige of consciousness, or obligation got me out of bed this morning...

     My nasty big boy AP tests are finally over... no more horribly stressful school atmosphere, no more horribly stressful home atmosphere, no more full binder and sleepless nights. So it should...