OllieTree

Healing actions for me- Learning something new/engaging in academic conversation/gaining new perspectives- Talking to and connecting with others - Being alone in a calming or sensually stimulating...

We noted that I've rejected a lot of what my parents consciously or unconsciously taught me, ie in terms of academics and racism. Nicole suggested that my lingering anxiety may have to do with the...

I saw someone say they felt like they missed the crucial spark of life that makes someone human. Instead they live doing the things that humans do to please others, so no one gets suspicious. I had...

Feeling pretty out of it. I have four hours until I have to go to work, and when I get back it's basically sleep time. Since I'm feeling dissociated out (have been for some days now) I'm debating how...

There are times when I'm so depressed that I can't see the meaning in anything, and times when I love life so intensely it seems like my heart will burst. This inherent contradiction sounds...

Yesterday. Yesterday I woke up at 8 but didn't want to get up until 9. I felt out of it and tired. Mornings are some of my worst dissociation times. But I've been trying to wake up earlier on...

Today I went to the DMV to take my permit test and renew my provisional license, and a security guard told his life's troubles to me. He told me I seem like a good person/listener and that I made his...

I had an okay day on Monday at work. I've been having social anxiety on the job that started after my first couple days when the initial glow faded and my feeling of alienation from the culture that...

I had a lot of fun on Monday hanging out with my friends. I hadn't seen them in 9 months at least. Today has been kind of a bad day. I still haven't processed everything that happened yesterday so...

I get the feeling that if I didn't stress and worry, I would be alright. Same goes for putting myself down and always assuming the worst. I always try to figure out a clear path forward when...

Feeling overwhelmed again. So many things have happened in the last couple days, and with an onset of anxiety and anger/cynicism today I felt like I completely lost control of my mind and my...

Copy of email sent to Heather today; didn't feel like writing another journal since I pretty much already said it all here  After I saw your comment this morning I looked on PsychologyToday for...

I'm woken up at 1:30 am by the profound belief that something is wrong. I had some kind of dream about associates being able to upload art to the Victoria's Secret company website and I basically...

Respect the decisions of every part of me, not just the one active at the moment..

Sigh. Sometimes I tell myself that I don't care how much attention my art gets, or that I shouldn't care and I should draw whatever I want. But I do care. I care a lot. But the way I create things...