OllieTree

Confusing, bad-feeling day. Sorting out thoughts. I woke up at 5am, unable to go back to sleep for two and a half hours which I spent on my phone. I texted Emily who was surprised I was up so early....

Halfway through the year today huh? I went to the mall today. It's an innocuous sentence, but I haven't done that in a long time, and I've never gone by myself. So that's what I did today. Homebody...

I'm nervous for so many reasons for tomorrow. I have a lot of things lined up to do and my entire schedule is packed. In the meantime I haven't been able to sleep and it's 4 in the morning. I'm...

I broke down again. I felt overwhemed by feelings of loneliness and hopelessness. Like everything has been spiralling down slowly since long ago, and I'm just stuck on this slow path down. Painful,...

Overwhelmed with feelings of being tired and awful and sad. Something about working all day/being in this work fixated mindset triggers depression in me. It's a familiar feeling. I think it's the...

Today I found that I feel anxiety about every little thing, my clothing rotation, jewelery rotation, the location of my stationary, not even beginning to mention homework jobhunting social life and...

A lot of things have changed this pandemic. I realized that instead of my grand vision of becoming great and helping other people, I just want to be happy. Does me being happy necessarily clash with...

I can't do this today. I don't want to. It's 10:29 and I don't care how stubborn my brain wants to be, I just want to sleep. I know that I self destruct without sleep and I'd rather avoid that....

When did I start bottling up my pain so utterly and completely instead of letting it out? In the past at least I felt some urge to tell someone about my pain. I don't now. I accept all the pain I...

I felt like a bit of a mess today, struggling with anxiety and motivation to get my work done. I'm a little behind in studio and I have a physics exam tomorrow that I haven't focusedly studied for-...

I'm feeling good today. I got some work done. I did homework with my physics lab partners and didn't feel broken up about it. I chatted with a friend I haven't talked to in a while, shared doodles on...

I feel like I want to journal more often. I felt like I was floating in the void today, and it's comforting to give my disorganized and half ghosted thoughts some form in words. Going over what I...

"You don't knock on my door before you come in, but you asked me to knock on your door". Grow the fuck up. I've seen 12 year olds more mature than your manbaby piece of shit ass. For context, he...

Highlights of today:- Pay more attention to what my body and mind are telling at any given moment, neglecting this has been increasing anxiety and dissociation- Mom is actually more understanding...

Trying to journal my way out of a thinking rut. I am trying to work but I can't stop thinking and thinking. Itms distracting. I'm thinking about who I am. It feels like who I am is as malleable as...