OllieTree

I want to be confident. I want to be intentional. I want to recconnect with myself. Get to know myself. Engage with myself. Realize my beliefs and my wants. I want to mentally achieve the point...

Frighteningly clicks with me

I have a craving to be loved. I feel like I will forever. This kind of craving that stems from childhood abandonment doesn't go away until someone can fill that void. Humans are meant to be loved...

I've been thinking a lot, but it's like my thoughts don't go anywhere, and when I try to give them substance in words they never seem to truly represent what I thought. So my thoughts disappear into...

So it's 4 AM as I stayed up finishing a piece of art for a fanart contest. Since I havent done digital art in a while and furthermore haven't colored my art in a while it ended up taking a long time...

My mood after having hours long anxiety attacks is very soured and my outlook on life and the world goes downhill. That's how I feel right now. I suddenly felt flooded with so many art ideas thag I...

Another day, another reminder of all that's holding me back. My mom came in this morning and put a thicker blanket over me because I only had a thin one. It felt nice and I suddenly realized how...

My therapist emailed me today saying that she doesn't think she's the right fit for me, and recommended some other therapists. It definitely stung when I saw it first thing in the morning, it made me...

I've been loving the new Genshin Impact update with my new favorite character, Xiao.. I don't usually fangirl like this I would say. I find a certain allure about him. I wouldn't say I'm romantically...

Another song by Mitsky is called "Nobody". For me it's one of those songs that hits so home it hurts, and just pains me to listen to. I thought I would find relief in the validation, but it just...

"I love everybody because I love you" is the opening of a song called Strawberry Blonde by Mitsky. It taps into a feeling that seems familiar but I don't think I've ever known. Have I ever been...

I just read an article about this, and it resonated with me. It's the feeling of not building the right skills as a child, breezing through life only to find out that you're lacking those key skills...

It's that time in the middle of the night where I start to wonder if I'm just unlovable. How can people be so close together and yet so far apart? I miss people. But if I see others again I might...

I am feeling very bad. It's one of those days where my mindset/hormones/brain chemicals suddenly takes a turn for the worse and I suddenly feel extremely fearful/unsafe, bitingly lonely, and...

I'm just TIRED. Tired and dissociating to the point where every moment felt like a pain to get through, like the last five minutes at the end of a long work day. But I feel like this much faster,...