May 24th

Overwhelmed with feelings of being tired and awful and sad. Something about working all day/being in this work fixated mindset triggers depression in me. It's a familiar feeling. 

I think it's the neglect of myself. The mindset makes me forget myself. I'm a machine that pumps out work, and any inability to do so is just cause to be down. 

I haven't eaten enough today. I drank enough water though. I feel hungry but I don't feel like eating lately, and haven't for a while now. It's very concerning but I prefer not to think about it too much. The prospect of food lately just isn't appetizing anymore.