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- I'm trashed. 51 days down the drain. I couldn't do it this time. The insanity never gave. I wore out. No excuses. I just caved. I wasn't stressed. I wasn't angry. I wasn't sad. I wasn't anything. I just got tired of wanting to drink. I...
- Circumstances and loyalties are keeping me from drinking. Barely anything internal to me is stopping me. It feels like I am just being obedient to my self will and the direction I am receiving from others. I know have to do this for myself.I am...
- Just a mention...I have felt a little uncertain to say much on here lately. I feel like I'm not doing my part for the newcomers or others in need, but I am leery of extending a hand right now while I am barely standing on my own. It isn't anything...
- I am so grateful to my friends, I am tearing up this morning. In fact, had several in my am mtg in happy tears. I am walking around with chills because what I feel is so much love and gratitude.I have spent most of the last 49 days in my own...
- You know who you are. Thank you for being here for the newcomers. Please keep coming back.
- Can't think. I am so tired of this. I am humbled. I'm floored. My mind is full of chaos and dysfunction. I'm beat. I can't keep this up much longer. Sober 45 days today. I don't know HOW TO LIVE like this.I cried to a bottle the other night....
- I hope someone can relate...I feel like I don't know how to live like a normal sober person.I don't focus on projects long enough to finish.I don't do thoughtful things like bday or holiday cards or even thank you cards.I don't do phone convos with...
- 1.BIG BOOK-CHAPTER FIVE P66.ASP"...with us, to drink is to die. If we were to live, we had to be free of anger. The grouch and the brainstorm were not for us. They may be the dubious luxury of normal men, but for alcoholics these things are...
- What a freakin relief !!!! I don't have to please anyone but myself and God.Love me and I will love you back.Hate me and I will love you back.Today I stop seeking approval for the sake of approval. I will not pretend to be a teddy bear to please...
- The term "self hate" has not even entered my mind since I got sober 37 days ago. Those of you who know me well, know that this is nothing short of miraculous.I cannot even believe that it hasn't crossed my mind. I was all about self hate before. ...
- I'm sorry. I am grasping for straws here.I am trying to understand my role in my marriage and I can't seem to figure out how to accept my husband's behavior without enabling him.My emotions are spinning out of control. I can't seem to get a grip. ...
- ...when I felt anything at all. Now I stuff it. Now it's to the point I can't have a calm conversation about something that upsets me. Yet, still, I don't feel like I can handle an argument without it driving me to drink.I can only control...
- I am angry a lot. It threatens my sobriety. Two or more angry people in the same room makes for a lot of toxic discourse. I think I am not the only one here who can relate.I see on these boards what SOUNDS like anger in the form of criticism, bad...
- How do you get through those early days... When your body is screaming for another drink? When your brain cannot be calm? When you just don't care enough?It's NOT just about surrender in my opinion. For me, in the first week, it was about...
- A girl new to AA has been coming to Saturday morning open meetings. A few weeks ago, this mtg got so large they decided to split off a small group which I decided to join in another room. Whitney, this new AA came along also.When we went around...