Alcoholism Support Group
Alcoholism is the continued consumption of alcoholic beverages, even when it is negatively affecting your health, work, relationships and life. If you think alcohol is causing you to lose control, it's time to seek help. Our group is a safe place to vent, check in, get back up if you fall, and reach sobriety.
Can't think. I am so tired of this. I am humbled. I'm floored. My mind is full of chaos and dysfunction. I'm beat. I can't keep this up much longer. Sober 45 days today. I don't know HOW TO LIVE like this.
I cried to a bottle the other night. I CRIED to a fucking bottle because I wanted it so badly. I CAN'T have it. I can't give in.
Why am I still sober?
At just the right moment... a DS friend, my sponsor, my grand sponsor, a sister sponsee, another AA, SOMEONE has always come through for me when I couldn't come through by myself. When I couldn't think for myself, I listened and I followed direction. I found inspiration, hope, relief, distraction, or simply the strength to persevere.
I have not given my will over to God but STILL I am getting this miracle every day I am sober. I don't even feel worthy, but I am sober. For this I am grateful.
Newcomers... Build a support structure. Reach out. And JUST DON'T DRINK. That is all I know.
This morning I didn't know how I would get through today sober, but I did. STILL, I don't know how I am going to get through tomorrow sober.
Tonight, I am getting on my knees and I will beg and plead for this obsession to be taken from me. I can't keep going like this, but I can't drink either.
For anyone else out there fighting for their life tonight, I am right here with you, and you will be in my prayers.
"Don't give up 5 minutes before the miracle."
I cried to a bottle the other night. I CRIED to a fucking bottle because I wanted it so badly. I CAN'T have it. I can't give in.
Why am I still sober?
At just the right moment... a DS friend, my sponsor, my grand sponsor, a sister sponsee, another AA, SOMEONE has always come through for me when I couldn't come through by myself. When I couldn't think for myself, I listened and I followed direction. I found inspiration, hope, relief, distraction, or simply the strength to persevere.
I have not given my will over to God but STILL I am getting this miracle every day I am sober. I don't even feel worthy, but I am sober. For this I am grateful.
Newcomers... Build a support structure. Reach out. And JUST DON'T DRINK. That is all I know.
This morning I didn't know how I would get through today sober, but I did. STILL, I don't know how I am going to get through tomorrow sober.
Tonight, I am getting on my knees and I will beg and plead for this obsession to be taken from me. I can't keep going like this, but I can't drink either.
For anyone else out there fighting for their life tonight, I am right here with you, and you will be in my prayers.
"Don't give up 5 minutes before the miracle."
Praying for you.
Hubby left town for a week beginning this morning. Last time....
Have to stay sober and get my shit together this time. I need the space. I am claiming this as my week for a big change. I am going to find a way to that miracle.
Thank you for the encouragement. Helping me through one more day. I hope other newbies are benefiting from this.
im glad you got the support round you, thanks for the post coz it just shows me how much illness wants me to drink i feel like this alot and i feel so guilty for thinkin like this but the thing is its the addiction!
I agree with Gecko re surrending. It can take enormous courage to surrender and much weakness to fight. You've yielded some HTL in reaching out and allowing others to guide you. It's not a weakness to surrender. You can be strong and weak at the same time, and neither can be a strength or a weakness, but a balance in life.
The supreme art of war is to subdue the enemy without fighting.
And get rid of that bottle!! Risk managment girl. Avoid temptation :}
Sun Tzu, The Art of War