Alcoholism Support Group
Alcoholism is the continued consumption of alcoholic beverages, even when it is negatively affecting your health, work, relationships and life. If you think alcohol is causing you to lose control, it's time to seek help. Our group is a safe place to vent, check in, get back up if you fall, and reach sobriety.
...when I felt anything at all. Now I stuff it. Now it's to the point I can't have a calm conversation about something that upsets me. Yet, still, I don't feel like I can handle an argument without it driving me to drink.
I can only control myself, but I cannot figure out HOW to do this without getting angry. I am so wound up I could break something.
I don't know what else to do but ask my husband to leave for a couple weeks to give me some space and to give him time to reflect on our current situation.
He has been drinking since Saturday. Fine. I understand that. But he quit his job back in September and is doing NOTHING to find another. If this were the first time this has happened it might be different, but I have supported him for most of the 4 years we have been together. I pay his student loans, his credit cards, his car, his booze, and I can't get him to clean the fucking bathroom.
I don't want to drink over this, but I am getting dangerously close today.
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I can only control myself, but I cannot figure out HOW to do this without getting angry. I am so wound up I could break something.
I don't know what else to do but ask my husband to leave for a couple weeks to give me some space and to give him time to reflect on our current situation.
He has been drinking since Saturday. Fine. I understand that. But he quit his job back in September and is doing NOTHING to find another. If this were the first time this has happened it might be different, but I have supported him for most of the 4 years we have been together. I pay his student loans, his credit cards, his car, his booze, and I can't get him to clean the fucking bathroom.
I don't want to drink over this, but I am getting dangerously close today.
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I know you have people to call, call them.
If I can find any serenity, I will discuss my husband taking some time away with his family. I won't fight. I won't be angry. I won't blame. This is about ME and MY inability to cope. This is about MY sobriety right now. Period.
"It is a spiritual axiom that every time we are disturbed, no matter what the cause, there is something wrong with us."
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I didn't......HOLD ON! IT GETS BETTER!!! If you blow it now, you'll have to suffer again for an additional 32 or 33 days or however longs it's been. Keep going and you're that much closer to peace! I promise you...and I know it sux.
Write it out, journal it, call your sponsor. BREATHE and remember what you're fighting for.
Hubby is going to go out to his sister's for a week or so. leaving on Monday I hope. I told him I need space to do the AA thing.
Now I just have to get past the trigger of being home alone. I have already discussed this with my sponsor. I am determined that this will be a good break for me.