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- Life is great. I almost can't imagine it getting any better.I just keep getting moments or periods of apathy and I just don't give crap about anything, especially the fact that I am not supposed to drink. I feel like I have just given up all hope...
- I haven't been on here much and am thinking I do an awful lot more posting when I feel like shit than when I feel okay. So wanted to share where I'm at which is a good place :)I am 21 days sober again. I really effed up after almost 18 mos sober...
- I picked up an 18 mo token Tuesday after abusing Ativan for the preceding month. Finally came clean about the pills but didn't want to flush them so I took them all then drank.I have some excuses but I really just made a series of bad decisions and...
- I think I am struggling with the God that I have always believed in.I picture God like a parent, but that will just never work for me I don't think.If God is like a parent then he will stand by idly while I try to figure everything out on my own and...
- I am 17 mos sober and feeling nuts like I am losing my mind sometimes.It's not much different than the crazy feelings I got when I was still drinking and detoxing. I just started celexa for anxiety and depression and not yet at a full dose. I...
- A lady I've only spoken to a few times approached after a mtg to discuss issues she is having with her sponsor. It sounded liked she was making excuses but I entertained the conversation. She asked if would hear her 5th if her sponsor wasn't...
- I always thought besides my dad, I was the only alki/addict in my entire extended family. No big deal, just felt like a black sheep.Out of the blue a cousin who I haven't spoken to or seen in 20 yrs - he was maybe 5 or 6 - contacted me on FB...
- Vent.Don't know wth is going on with me but I feel like I am losing it.There is nothing in my life that I should be stressing about and yet I feel like I am gonna snap. Wanted to drink badly on Saturday but took some action and got through it. I...
- Okay, changed my mind... Gonna post one that is bothering me.My parents did the best they could. I live with a TON of guilt over having spent my entire life playing a victim and shoving them away.This is not at all about what they did or didn't do...
- I hate to talk about struggling when it relates to me personally. I guess my ego tells me I shouldn't be struggling at 15 mos sober in AA. Others talk about not even wanting to drink anymore. Not my story.My obsession has never left. The...
- I am a bit distraught on behalf of my sister in law who's mother passed last weekend. It is sad yes, although I don't feel any pain myself except in having to watch the family hurt the way they do.It is uncomfortable to me. I realize that not only...
- One of my fav AA ladies dropped a sponsee and sent her to me because "you two have a lot in common" she says. :-pTurns out this kid can't stay sober. Imagine that.Strange thing is, I really don't have an answer for the constant relapsing. It just...
- I have a crush on a guy. We have spent a good deal of time talking and hanging out as "pals".I am trying to keep my expectations in check. I can't figure out if he wants something more or not. I am definitely interested, but I haven't the...
- http://www.washingtonpost.com/entertainment/books/book-review-the-next-right-thing-by-dan-barden/2012/02/27/gIQAobQqrR_story.htmlIt was written by a friend of mine. It's fiction, mystery thriller. I don't usually read fiction but going to give...
- One year ago today, I dropped myself at Tara Treatment center. Thank God I have been sober ever since.They invited me back to give a lead at their family day, so that is where I am headed in a few hours.I am super emotional about this, remembering...