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- i'm dropping out of aa until i can stack 30 days. i have nothing to offer anyone. i don't know wtf i'm doing. i don't want your horror stories but i can't stand on my 2 feet anyway. have to stop. can't. don't want it bad enough apparently. ...
- GOYA.Exercise works. Run. Walk. Lift. Mountain bike. Kayak. Hike. Frisbee. Racquetball. Soccer.This is my list of what I like to do. Physical exertion stops my obsession in its tracks. I went from wanting to throw in the towel today (day...
- "Slipped" again. Just can't seem to pull out of this and stack some sober time. I feel like I've been going backwards. I actually woke up at 6am contemplating my powerlessness and at the same time anticipating watching the sunrise with my first...
- If you count days, months, or years, how much sober time do you have? I am skeptical of NOT doing AA, but I haven't been very successful even with it. Curious who else has had success using other methods free of AA or in addition to AA.
- Just exploring my options I guess.There's few things that bother me about AA. It puts alcohol in the front of my mind all day every day. During my small periods of success in the past before AA, I stopped thinking about alcohol. My mistake was...
- (apparently I'm going to be a serial poster today)My dad was alcoholic. Everything I learned I learned from him. I loved my dad and thought he was always right. He was my role model. That said, I know he is not the reason I drink. I drink...
- We "can't give away what we don't have" or won't take.Can alcoholics struggling to stay in recovery, ie having continuous relapses, really help each other or anyone else?I have pulled back recently on giving support for two reasons... One, I don't...
- Anyone else taking jabs from this coward? Whoever it is doesn't have the balls to approach me as him/herself, so he/she had to create a new username to knock me.C'mon Jimbo, step forward. I'm bending over so it's real easy for you to kiss my ass.
- By the grace of God I am sober today. Dad was an abusive alcoholic. Mom was the invisible parent. Ironically, they referred to me as their "sober" child because of my demeanor. On Sunday, I visited my mom and looked into her eyes for the first...
- i;'m sick. i haave to wake up tomorrow and i have a plan. i hate this and i love htis. going to telll mu mom. fuck.0 can'rt anymore. hte it alll. donel. i got beat. i lose. game over. maybe i wont even do what i have to do. SEEE. i...
- Realizing everything I do is for myself. Apologies are getting old. I just need to acknowledge that I'm tired of trying to be center of attention. The world does NOT in fact revolve around me. I have hurt so many people to get a laugh or just to...
- First of all, I have to say every post I make is difficult because I can't seem to find the umph to reply to the many other need posts out there. Sorry. I'll get back to that asap.I just need to say it out loud. I love you all, but I am so tired...
- this is not working. i feel worse and worse. i want to keep drinking and i can't keep anything down. it's not going to go away that fucking craving. why stop? BECAUSE this isn't fixing anything. GAPING hole. can't fill it. just stop.i haven't...
- can't get there. i can't get what i aimed for. the whole point. i feel like shit. puking. can't keep it down long enough. this sucks. no fun. don't do it. be done.how the fuck did i get here? i was doing so well. THIS is what i wanted all...
- ....When I was like 6 years old. I remember my mom and dad they used to give us wine Italian style in thsre little jars. I remember wanting seconds. I remember finishing my sibs' wine, I remember getting drunk at 12, slurring my words when my...