Alcoholism Support Group

Alcoholism is the continued consumption of alcoholic beverages, even when it is negatively affecting your health, work, relationships and life. If you think alcohol is causing you to lose control, it's time to seek help. Our group is a safe place to vent, check in, get back up if you fall, and reach sobriety.

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Taradactyl 02/09/2010

The term "self hate" has not even entered my mind since I got sober 37 days ago. Those of you who know me well, know that this is nothing short of miraculous.

I cannot even believe that it hasn't crossed my mind. I was all about self hate before. I seem to have lost that anger toward myself. I don't know what this means yet, but it feels good.

I will bask in this little miracle tonight.

Does anyone else have a story of little realizations that came about during sobriety?

I can't wait to see what comes next. :)

deleted_user 02/09/2010

i have never hated "self". i hated the choices i made.

deleted_user 02/09/2010

Right on. I remember having conversations with you about this, and you really couldn't explain 'why' you were out to get you. I think many of us are out to get ourselves and not always sure of the reasons behind it.

I know I wrote a journal about 'Don't let me get me' and to this day, I'm still my worst enemy sometimes. Don't make no sense, but so long as we become aware..that 'light bulb' moment...why question it?

You help me with this very thing, and I still need your help...so don't forget me when I am getting me! lol. I know you wont. And thanks for all you do. This Whoot's for you!!!

I love you...more ...YES I DOOOOOOO :))

(man, I hope I'm making sense tonight...it's real loud in my head...my friends live there, ya know...LOL) (well, hope that was a funny!!!)

deleted_user 02/09/2010

some say could be the Hand of ....

deleted_user 02/09/2010

...God! (o;

deleted_user 02/09/2010

im so happy to hear this :) im so glad youve found this small bit of peace, it helps so much in the day to day living when your not so fixated on taking yourself down for whatever reasons real or imagined that youve decided to hate yourself for. it clears the mind a bit to keep on growing and making room for more wonderful little realizations about sober living:) im so proud of you:)

deleted_user 02/10/2010

i hated myself because of the choices i made. I have forgiven myself, accept the fact that i may not always make the right choices today but at least I am not making them in a screwed up mind.

Peace!

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