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I've been thinking a lot.. Not necessarily a bad thing though.. Sometimes my thoughts can end up in some pretty bad places... But overall, I'm doing okay. I'm trying... Taking things one step at a...

I talked to him again. He was sooo hyper.. He kept talking like mario xD and in a high pitched voice. and he was being hilarious. I laughed so hard that I nearly threw up.. It was great. about 4 hrs...

Today is a weird day. I'm not feeling bad, I'm actually pretty good. But I also feel really... Off? O.o My grandmother on my dad's side was in the hospital last night. Worried me a lil bit. But I...

I talked to him again last night.. on xbox. I had been playing video games with a friend and they introduced me to someone. and while talking to them I saw him get online and waited a few minutes...

Ya know.. I've tried to write something about 5-6 times now...  It doesn't seem to be going well for me.. I want to write about everything going on in my head right now.. I want to talk about it.....

I went to my cousin's funeral today... So much I could say.. so much I WANT to say... But there is no point... long story short, it was sad, and I've been thinking about suicide and death all day......

Do you ever feel so... Alone.. And broken.. That's it like.. Living another day is absolutely pointless.. You see everyone around you moving on, being happy, living their life.. And you're so happy...

I'm not handling things too well tonight(technically last night I guess).. I'm trying sooo hard, but I feel so overwhelmed...  It's hard to breathe.. I've been upset all day/night... Felt sick most...

I think the thing I hate most about my mind is how such small things can set me off.. Example.. A 4 yr old elephant at my favorite zoo died yesterday.. And or some reason it hit me really hard... I...

I'm feeling okay.. Things are still hard.. Mentally I'm still pretty off and my depression is still going strong.. BUT.. I'm feeling better... Not good.. But better.. All the drama here still keeps...

Sometimes I think.. Screw people, I'm awesome and I don't care what they think! But then I start to think.. And I remember how annoying I am.. And how Depressing I am.. And how frustrating and...

Laying in bed, waiting for my melatonin to kick in, probably gonna end up taking more before I fall asleep...I am not sure if I am getting better or worse... I've been okay.. I guess.. Better than I...

Well, Not feeling totally terrible.. Not feeling good, but not terrible either.. Been pretty anxious.. Cried a lil.. Didn't sleep last night.. Didn't eat.. But, I did get myself to eat a bowl of...

I'm not really sure how to explain this feeling.. I guess the best I say would be still numb? And very very exhausted.. I'm emotionally worn out and just empty.. I mean, It's not even necessarily...

Well.. I spent most of yesterday crying and panicking. But.. I did go online to the crisis chat. It helped a little bit I guess. Still didn't help much... I got to vent about a couple things I can't...