I can do this..

Well, Not feeling totally terrible.. Not feeling good, but not terrible either.. Been pretty anxious.. Cried a lil.. Didn't sleep last night.. Didn't eat.. But, I did get myself to eat a bowl of cheerios along with a glass of orange juice this morning. So, I guess that's good.. I had written out all this stuff that was.. Well pretty depressing... And.. I don't want to do that today.. I'm taking this one day at a time.. And today I'm going to do the best I can to stay positive and motivated! It helps that I'm pretty hyper right now from not sleeping.. And I know I've done this (well similar at least) before.. But, I think, from now on, when I'm feeling really depressed and crappy.. I want to start writing lists of positive things, although, I may write them in an actual journal most of the time so people don't get the same crap all the time... But.. For today, I'm doing it here, because my arm is already sore and it's easier to type than write xD So.. Here it goes..
10 Reasons to live♥:
• To find love
• To lose weight and learn to love myself
• I want to go skydiving, ziplining, ect.
• To learn more about cars and become a good mechanic
• To learn to play a new insturment, because why not?
• To make people smile : ) (Or make them smack me because of my lame jokes and puns)
• To get married and drive the poor sucker nuts for the rest of their life. : 3
• Because I won't even have the possibilty of being a mommy...
• To get my tattoos
♥ Because... My life matters... (Won't lie.. This one was really difficult...)
And because I'm trying to kill some time while I'm waiting to wash dye out of my hair, annnd I'm in a list making mood...
20 things that make me happy♥:
• Long skype calls
• Bedtime stories
• A babies laughter♥♥♥
• Singing/dancing like an idiot. Especially with my dogs..
• A good book 
• Movie nights!
• Getting home after a successful time at the gym
• Dying my hair (anything like messing with my hair or washing my face or painting nails calms me down a little bit)
• Stuffed animals<3
• Talking to someone I care about 
• Painting my face/putting on makeup
• Doing well in a video game.
• Shiny pennies : D
• Cold fluffy pillows
• Animals 
• Lilo & Stitch
• Sewing
• Comfy hoodies and pajama pants♥
• When people send me random pictures (preferably of themselves xD & preferably not nude.....)
• Flowers
 
Well.. I know this was long (like everything I post here.. xD) but if you made it this far, Thanks for reading and in case no one has told you this today.. You are amazing♥