Sierrawr6911

So, I am writing this because a cutie-patootie wants me to write something positive. : PSo... Now I will write 2 lists... First.... Things that make me happy:)•Puppies•Soft...

One day I won't be alive anymore.. I kinda take comfort in that thought... I feel like im slowly suffocating.. a little more each day... Suicide is constantly on my mind.. I am not planning on doing...

Thoughts of suicide still flood my mind..  Anxiety fills my lungs.. I'm almost constantly anxious.. Panic attacks happen quite a bit.. Someone I care about very much is barely speaking to me.....

I feel like I am losing myself more and more each day.. Slowly drifting away.. I feel so empty and numb and I also feel everything all at once... I feel so overwhelmed.. Yesterday I literally spent...

I feel so worhtless, disgusting, like I am never going to get better or be okay.. Nothing seems to be going quite right... I'm soo done.. I just want to disappear...  I'm so tired.. Can't keep doing...

I officially broke things off with the guy I have feelings for.... He and I are over... and I feel horrible... He's so upset... I'm just not happy... I need someone who can be tougher for me and...

The guy I have feelings for is in the process of moving, and won't be able to talk much for about a week. So I'm kinda lonely now..  But I guess it doesn't make a difference, we usually end up...

I cut again... on the 28th... I cut a lot....... v.v I feel so disappointed in myself.. But I've been so overwhlemed... Mentally I'm a complete disaster... I am tryign soooo hard not to give up.. All...

A lot has been going on.. Been having panic attacks often, feeling really depressed.. But I'm not giving up... A lot of bad stuff has been happening.. But, some good stuff has too! I had a...

Where to start... Good news... I did figure some stuff out so now i can start working on getting my life on track...  Don't feel so stressed about that now.. But... My ex and I are, or at least were...

My anxiety is getting worse.. Decided to try something i heard about.. Using lavender oil to help.. Supposed to calm you down... Put some in a nasal inhaler, use it when I start getting panicky, it...

Still pretty depressed... But today hasn't been bad. Woke up early, not tired or in a bad mood. Went with my dad to his drug test because he hates going out alone. Sat in the car while i waited and...

My ex has been trying to get me back... Recently I got frustrated and told him he needs to stop because we are never getting back together.... Now  I feel bad.. but he is tagging me in stuff on fb...

These emotions.. They are so overwhleming.. I find it hard to get out of bed or stay awake, but nearly impossible to sleep.. Even my melatonin only gets me a little sleep, even very large amounts.....

My entire world is crashing down around me and I don't know what to do... I cry all of the time, my anxiety is really bad, I think about suicide constantly.... I am pushing everyone away... Nothing...