Not going to let anything break me...

I've been thinking a lot.. Not necessarily a bad thing though.. Sometimes my thoughts can end up in some pretty bad places... But overall, I'm doing okay. I'm trying... Taking things one step at a time.. Not easy.. But hopefully it'll be worth it.. Not rushing into anything.. Trying to not think so many bad thoughts about myself... It's far from easy.. But.. I'm surviving.. 
I do get pretty lonely sometimes.. When I see pretty much everyone in my life in relationships, happy, living their life.. It can make me feel pretty alone.. But, I'm okay., If it's meant to happen it will.. If not, I will still be okay.. I will figure it out.. Even if I become a crazy dog lady or something xD I will be okay.. I am strong enough.. Even when things get hard..
Now.. I must admit.. I gave in and cut again a week ago.. It's a week as of today.. And.. I'm just a little bit nervous.. Because I do still feel the need to hurt myself.. Every time something happens.. A little argument, when I start getting stressed out, when I miss him.. It's soo hard..  And it scares me... I think I'll be fine.. But it is really hard.. 
I can get through this though. I will be okay. 
Anyways, hopefully it won't be too long before I can start getting my life together. and I can focus on getting out of this house. I think if I can get myself out of this house even if it was just in a small house on this property.. It'd make a huge difference.. So that is my number one focus right now. getting out of this house.