A little bit stronger..

I'm feeling okay.. Things are still hard.. Mentally I'm still pretty off and my depression is still going strong.. BUT.. I'm feeling better... Not good.. But better.. All the drama here still keeps me pretty stressed.. I still miss him.. But it is getting a little bit easier.. It still hurts, but not quite so bad.. I feel a little bit stronger... I'm trying.. It's a constant battle, but I'm trying so hard to get through this.. I'm trying to keep my head up. I'm trying to stop being so hard on myself all the time.. I'm taking it one day at a time.. I can do this...
I am stronger than depression...
I am more than my weight..
I am not as bad as the toxic people in my life want me to feel.. 
I'm going to be okay.....

  Nothing lasts forever, right? That's what I always tell myself.. Normally meant in a negative way.. But, that goes for all the bad stuff too.. Right...? This pain.. It's temporary.. Very difficult.. It breaks me down.. But, it's all temporary... And not everyone is going to hurt me the way he did... Life has to get better eventually.. I just have to stay strong in the meantime.. Going to focus on losing weight and getting my life together.. I don't want to let my issues run my life.. But, it's soo hard and tiring to do such simple things.. And being around/talking to people makes me feel soo drained.. I lack the energy and motivation to do anything... Hopefully I can push through this and maybe it'll get easier with time...