Families & Friends Of Addicts Support Group
Addiction affects more than just the individual. This community is dedicated to the families and friends of individuals suffering from any form of addiction. Mental health professionals are increasingly considering alcoholism and addiction as diseases that flourish in and are enabled by family systems. Family members react to the addicted person with particular behavioral...
I posted this under the depression support group...but I wanted to post it here also...since the reason for these feelings is my addict husband...he hasn't used since november but his addict characteristics are becoming more and more prevalent...and unfortunately they are spilling over onto me...
after our fight the other day, i just completely wasted the fourth of july...and now today, that he's gone of to work and my son has gone off to enjoy his summer, I am home alone, like I love to be...but I am feeling...DEPRESSED!...UGH...
I hate these feelings of depression...i have so much crap I have to do but I just can't get up to do it...i've been up since six thirty this morning and just wasted time on-line and done absolutely nothing...i feel so overwhelmed by everything that I have to do that I can't even get up out of bed...I just lay here...thinking about everything I have to do and not having the energy or motivation to get up and do it...and I can't even blame this on anyone...it's all me!...god help me please...someone anyone please help me...all I want to do is sleep...and I am so tired of sleeping...if i sleep, I'll be up all night...and then I get all these ideas and solutions to all my problems but when it comes time to follow through on all my shit...I don't, I can't , I don't feel like it...what the hell is wrong with me? and why can't I just get over this crap? why do i continue to feel like crap every single f'ing day...why GOD WHY?
after our fight the other day, i just completely wasted the fourth of july...and now today, that he's gone of to work and my son has gone off to enjoy his summer, I am home alone, like I love to be...but I am feeling...DEPRESSED!...UGH...
I hate these feelings of depression...i have so much crap I have to do but I just can't get up to do it...i've been up since six thirty this morning and just wasted time on-line and done absolutely nothing...i feel so overwhelmed by everything that I have to do that I can't even get up out of bed...I just lay here...thinking about everything I have to do and not having the energy or motivation to get up and do it...and I can't even blame this on anyone...it's all me!...god help me please...someone anyone please help me...all I want to do is sleep...and I am so tired of sleeping...if i sleep, I'll be up all night...and then I get all these ideas and solutions to all my problems but when it comes time to follow through on all my shit...I don't, I can't , I don't feel like it...what the hell is wrong with me? and why can't I just get over this crap? why do i continue to feel like crap every single f'ing day...why GOD WHY?
We get so bogged down in our addicts crap that we forget to take care of ourselves. I've been there and know all about sleeping the days away and having no energy for anything. It is because you are completely drained. I am certain there are many people here that have felt the same at one time or another and many that will feel exactly like you do now.
Go get help to work on making you whole again. Living with an addict seems to shatter us. I hope you feel better in the future, but be aware it is a slow process and not something that is fixed over night but it can be rectified.
It's SO very easy to lose yourself when you're stressing over your addict. All I did was focus on how I could help him or how I could make him better when in reality, I wasted years of my life focusing on something that was out of my control.
Also, if you're having trouble sleeping, get some paper and when you can't sleep, write down the time you woke up (if you ever really fell asleep) and write what's on your mind at that very moment.
I say this because my mother has a hard time sleeping due to stress. She went to a therapist and she told her to keep a sleep journal. She's now starting to see a pattern and they can sort of zero in on the actual issues going on.
Overall, it's SO important to put the focus on yourself. You need to get yourself back into the groove of everyday life. Find yourself again. Be happy again. It's a slow process so just be patient with yourself.
Thinking of you...
I agree with others I am so glad I was in counseling and she helped me through the depression. She told me last Friday how far I have come in the last year. You can't live with all the anxiety and it not have an effect on you.