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It is already the 6th day of July and I've done nothing but waste the first week of another month...why? because of others controlling my feelings...i literally forced myself to get up and go downtown to cash a check that I begrudgingly had to ask my mom for...I hate money...it is evil...but anyway...in the bank there weren't too many people but they had a greeter and two tellers and the greeter doing her job spoke to me and made me feel very uncomfortable...one teller told me she would be right with me as soon as she finished at the drive thru window...and the teller that actually cashed my check was just to friendly...so a trip to the bank and just conducting regular business with THREE people just made me soo uncomfortable and anxious
...so I leave to go home and of course I haven't eaten so I am hungry...so I go to the Whataburger in the tunnel...and it is PACKED with lunch time customers...I order my food and find a table amongst all the people...and as I sit down to wait for my food...I start to feel anxious...and shaky...i literally start to shake...i look around and there are people all around...I mean it's lunch time...and they're all talking...and I just start feeling very uncomfortable...and anxious...and shaky....my food comes and I take my time eating it as I am not so hungry anymore...and it was good but I still feel like crap....so I finish my food get a refill of my drink and head home...as I leave the packed whataburger and go out to the world...I feel a little better but not much...there is still too many people and too much noise...I realized while eating that it's people that make me sick...I don't like people...I get these anxious uncomfortable feelings anytime I am around people...whether I know them or not...I just want to be alone...I don't like people...I mean I like people like my family and friends...but I don't like being around people...People drain me of all my energy...THATS WHAT IT IS!!! People drain me of my energy...OH MY GOD...I just had an epiphany...OH WOW!!!...OK I am going to go now and try to regain my energy...I have a lot to do today and again now that all my energy is gone, I don't feel like doing anything...so I am going to go try to refuel ...see y'all later
...so I leave to go home and of course I haven't eaten so I am hungry...so I go to the Whataburger in the tunnel...and it is PACKED with lunch time customers...I order my food and find a table amongst all the people...and as I sit down to wait for my food...I start to feel anxious...and shaky...i literally start to shake...i look around and there are people all around...I mean it's lunch time...and they're all talking...and I just start feeling very uncomfortable...and anxious...and shaky....my food comes and I take my time eating it as I am not so hungry anymore...and it was good but I still feel like crap....so I finish my food get a refill of my drink and head home...as I leave the packed whataburger and go out to the world...I feel a little better but not much...there is still too many people and too much noise...I realized while eating that it's people that make me sick...I don't like people...I get these anxious uncomfortable feelings anytime I am around people...whether I know them or not...I just want to be alone...I don't like people...I mean I like people like my family and friends...but I don't like being around people...People drain me of all my energy...THATS WHAT IT IS!!! People drain me of my energy...OH MY GOD...I just had an epiphany...OH WOW!!!...OK I am going to go now and try to regain my energy...I have a lot to do today and again now that all my energy is gone, I don't feel like doing anything...so I am going to go try to refuel ...see y'all later
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My 6mo twin DD's are EBF and just started rice cereal on the first. Everything has been going fine except this morning one of them had a diaper rash (lots of redness around her anus). I read this as one of the signs of an allergy. BUT I did just buy a different brand diaper yesterday (which they have used randomly before w/no issues). Do you think its the cereal or the diaper? Im ready to start...
Actually what you describe is part of the actual classic definition being an introvert.
"Contrary to what most people think, an introvert is not simply a person who is shy. . . . Basically, an introvert is a person who is energized by being alone and whose energy is drained by being around other people."
So true. While I always find crowded places intensely unpleasant and that seems quite sensible to me. (Noise, emotions, sweat, odor, coordinating yourself around others). This also explains why I (and other introverts) am totally exhausted and often grouchy after spending hours with my family and friends--even if I enjoyed myself the whole time.