christmas eve dec 24,2011 good and bad?

 wel  one good thing about today, is im going to see my oldest son FINNALLY. he is coming here tonight after work. went to aunts house today. got good shower AND WASHED HAIR FINNALLY. YAY went to aunts house and my b.f brought my youngest over. he gave my son 40.00 then he gave me only 50. i dont know if im getting any moore or not. i know im tottaloy screwed. he has never acted this fucking cheap and its freaking me out. im sooooooooo broke, its not even funny. am waiting on oldest to get here. still no touchdown. realy freaking out on that one. will have to take drastick measures now laxatives n things. its not going to be good but is my own fault, need to add way moore fruit and veggies. im scared about everything. why does he do this to me. im very depressed and i should just be happyu to be up and walking, but wen yuor as poor as me, its all sucks. so whol knows wat i will do. figures, should have went for the shoes after all i guess. ok, later